Get Into D' Zeon.Zone

Boleh makan. :D

2009-01-23T10:46:00.002+08:00

laugh up one's sleeve by DavedeHaan

hihihihihihihihi....

Enough porridges!

2009-01-21T09:09:00.000+08:00

i want REAL food!

Going for an interview

2009-01-14T21:22:00.002+08:00

Fingers crossed.

Too cute =)

2009-01-12T02:49:00.001+08:00

Bliss

2009-01-07T13:14:00.007+08:00

by (from left) ryanlovelace, indorock, =drugs-and-groceries [deviantart]

Kiss me out of the bearded barley
Nightly, beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress.

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me

Kiss me down by the broken tree house
Swing me upon its hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We'll take the trail marked on your father's map

Next>>>

2009-01-05T13:35:00.002+08:00

happy summer by Bilalkarim

Life is progress. It is about personal growth mentally and spiritually. It is about having mistakes and learning from them, and hopefully never to repeat them again. Life is about learning to let go. To move on.

So I am progressing. I am growing, mentally and spiritually. I have done mistakes and learned from them, and hopefully I will not do the same mistakes again. I am learning to let go.

TO MOVE ON.

No more sad posts. I want 2009 to be a year to remember only the fun, funny adventures with my lovvies. Let the sad moments pass like sands being blown by the wind, vanished and forgotten.
=)

Happy New Year

2009-01-01T14:43:00.005+08:00

I am truly blessed to be able to end this year with a bang and I wouldn't trade it with anything in the world. It's my first time ever celebrating new year and definitely hope there's many more to come. The view from Eddy's place is just beyond words. The wine was good, fireworks was magnificent, but the company was just pure ecstasy (pun intended. I know how much you hate drugs). Then it was off to 21 Club and thank God we took the public transport otherwise we wouldn't have made it in time. Eddy was being such a gentleman and paid for everything. I kinda felt bad. Met with Heidi and we partied like a rockstar. Then we decided to go to Marketplace. It's 2am already and the cabby was being anal for charging us RM20 for that short ride. Owh well it's the new year right? We arrived, took pictures outside and had Long Island Tea (a tall jug). Then we dance some more, more cam whoring, and smoke even more and just let it all hang out. But time flies and before we knew it, it's already 3am and the fiesta has ended. With a second helping of LIT, we decided to go and try our luck at Zouk, in case it's still open. I actually walk all the way from Yap Kwan Seng with them, with goodies bags and a jug in my hand to Zouk. Sadly our club-hopping adventures come to an end. Zouk's new year party has ended as well. And so was Quatro's. We hailed a cab, and stopped at McD to grab food, coz Heidi was hungry and she has not eaten in days.
Off to Ed's place, we had supper, talked to Tina (Heidi's sister) and I puked my guts out. Slept on the sofa (sorry Heidi and Eddy- I snored! haha) as the two of them chatted away. Then Eddy woke me up and asked me to sleep on the bed instead. I slept like a baby (and I think I snored some more gah!!!).
The next morning was a mayjah hangover. Mom's back from Dubai so I decided to let myself out, and drove back. Turns out she was too tired because of the jet lag and stuff. So I sleep some more at home. Woke up and as I am typing this, I felt one thing- LOVED.

:D

Thanks Heidi.
Thanks Eddy Teddy.

=)

Surat cinta Zeon untuk ...

2008-10-15T09:30:00.010+08:00

Ragutlah nyawa ini.
Kerna untuk apa lagi sebenarnya?
Sejujurnya?
Seikhlasnya?
Setulusnya?
Cabut...
Biar bercerai berai kecai ari dari diri.
Kalut.
Penat sudah aku berdongeng
sesak di pentas satu-laki-tunjuk
Berlakun di layar kesepian.
Keseorangan.
Awan kelabu mengundang kebasahan tatkala hujan
rintik.
rentak..
retak...
Lalu dia membelah bumi lalu dia gugur lalu dia menyembah pelusuk alam
Dia, dan ngauman gong dan panahan cahaya halilintar silih berganti
Aku terkapai mencari Srikandi di balik riuh ini.

Sudah!
Cukup sudah linangan ini gugur.
Sudah!
Selesai sudah aku mendengar kata kata bisa darimu
Sudah!
Penat sudah aku menjadi ukuran kelemahanmu
Sudah!
Jenuh sudah aku mengukir senyuman tatkala palatmu terpalit padaku.

Tiba waktu kau kan sedar.
Aku juga insan biasa punya rasa, bisa merasa dan ingin dirasa cinta.
Tiba waktu kau kan tau.
Yang ku mau hanya secebis kasih
secoret sayang.

Aku hausss...
...dan tegukan setiap titisan sungai Nil tak mampu untuk memuas nafsu dahagaku.

Tiba masa Dia akan mengajarmu,
Yang ku ingin hanya setitik pengertian.
Persoalannya,
tidak terlalu sempitkah waktu?
untukku?
untuk kau?
untuk Dia?

Runaway child

2008-09-02T21:49:00.006+08:00

Berlari dia
mengorak kaki
menjauh dari sepi

Berdegup jantung
meningkat berdentum
irama menenggelam hilaian resah

Bertakung air mata
tertahan menunggu masa
gugur menyembah bumi

Asid laktik melumpuh diri
Hembusan angin menusuk sendi
Tetap gagah meredah kelam

Menyiat pekat malam

"IN TED WE TRUST"

2008-09-01T21:05:00.010+08:00

Today was one hell of a day.

I am just too excited to type or to explain. Lets just let the photos do the talking.

GUESS? BY MARCIANO

The flannel shirt :)

I am an M-er ;)

sleeves details

the belt ;)

closed up. its uber goth~! me likey~!

Off to Ted Baker:

I love Ted Baker.
Period.

Remember my wish list #6... there was the Turkee Waistcoat I wanted from Ted Baker?
Hehe well, I bought this waistcoat instead and tho it's not the same thing- hell care, it's hot. I think it's even better than Turkee... :P

front: wool

Velvet back: I swear it's the softest thing I have ever touched.

silk lining *read luxury* :)

Well at RM490.00 it is a tad expensive, but I just love Ted Baker. Another reason why i just adore Ted is the whimsical quotes that comes with the each garments. For example: Ted says: Created especially for you :) can be found on the label of this waistcoat. Cute huh...?

Then there was THE jeans. :)

My newest baby.

Yes I am a 32. :(

purple lining!!!! :P

Studs: closed up details.

its RM599.00 *gasp!*

Owh well... we only live once. :p

And finally, Norm got back from the US and she got me this:

ADELE!!!

Back

The CD, which is played 24/7 now. :)

And guys...
what a day it was.

;)

My 2009 Christmas Wish List:

2008-08-31T11:40:00.027+08:00

I know its EARLY...
*read ada aku kesah?*

Basically a Christmas wish list is a list of wish that is listed(wtf) to give a subtle hints(rite...) to others on what are desired or ideal presents for Christmas. It is also to avoid the awkward, al cheapo gifts such as photo frames, key chains and other Xmas gift faux pas. A good way to ensure others to have a sufficient amount of time to save up just in time before Christmas, I highly recommend it if the gifts are on the luxurious items side.

Well, this is my top 10 wish list:

10. Mariah Carey, 1990

Mariah Carey debut self titled album, released in 1990.
I have been searching high and low for this album in Malaysia.
USD $10.99, buy at Amazon.com

09. iPod Classic

Black.
160GB.
40'ooo songs.
2.5 inch color display.
162 grams.

USD $ 349.00, buy at Apple

08. Touch Phone (HTC Touch Diamond/Pro, iPhone 3G)

HTC Touch Diamond

HTC Touch Pro

Apple iPhone 3G

07. Chanel Allure Homme Sport 100ml

06.Ted Baker Turkee

S or M. Keep the receipt just in case it does not fit well. ;)

DO NOT REMOVE PRICE TAG. :p

£85.00, at Ted Baker Online

05. Tod's Gommino, assorted colors.

Tod's signature Gommini is the embodiment of casual luxury. Size Euro 44, UK 10.

expect to pay USD $345.00.

04. Mark & Spencer's Fruit Gums

It's never enough. RM 10.

03.Basics white or black V neck/baseball tees from Zara or TopMan.

Fyi, for basics, I don't do round neck. Coz it ~~fuckin make me look like i have a fat, turkey neck~~ doesn't look good on me. I'll go for size S or M. Keep the receipt just in case it does not fit well. ;)

DO NOT REMOVE PRICE TAG. :p

RM26-50. Topman BUY 2 GET 20% off... :D

02. Apple MacBook Pro.

Buy, kill or steal for me at

USD $1999 (15 inch with 2.4 GHz)
USD $2499 (15 inch with 2.5 GHz)
USD $2799 (17 inch with 2.5 GHz)

dunno wtf is GHz, don't care. :P

Available at Apple.com

And finally.... the snowballed gift for God knows how many Christmas-es already:

01. Paul Smith Men's Flight Bag

Mr Paul Smith if you see this.. I am YOUR BIGGEST FAN. I dieted my way to squeezed into the my-mom-went-to-London-and-bought-me-2-size-smaller-SKINNY-JEANS. How's that?!

Torturous moment aside,

Printed with the multi stripe Mini on location at Paul Smith's favourite oak tree, this is THE signature Paul Smith bag. Externally the bag is finished with a concealed zip pocket on the front and also a leather multi stripe, Mini shaped luggage tag.

The bag is styled with smooth chocolate leather trims and an adjustable shoulder strap, and has a zip opening.

Internally the bag is lined with purple canvas and has two small pockets; one of which is zip fastening.

Priced at £ 190.00, it's ~~MOTHA FUCKIN~~ a tad expensive, but it's worth the shot to include this on my wishlist.

Anyone?

Other options includes:

Paul Smith Laptop Bag- £90.00, which will go perfectly with #2...

owh well, a boy could only wish. ;)

visit Paul Smith for more info.

Tell me, what's your Christmas wish list?

its 10mins to...

2008-08-30T23:49:00.001+08:00

31st Aug... and i am getting ready to go and sleep.

-______-

PFFTTTT...

I shall:

2008-08-28T08:44:00.002+08:00

read less Perez.

Letter of Absence

2008-08-28T08:44:00.001+08:00

4 months...

Auf Wiedersehen~!

2008-08-24T14:51:00.005+08:00

For all of you fashionistas wannabes

2008-07-30T09:32:00.003+08:00

LESSON 101: The first step to great fashion is to be able to pronounce the label- correctly.

Often I come across people who claimed that they are fashion savvy, but once they open their mouth to pronounce the brand (with mega confidence mind you):

Orang A: Wah... look at new low-E spring 08/09 shoees
me: -.-

Asam B: Eh, you got check out the new mui mui dress or not?
me: -.-?

Ah Jeng C: Guy Laroch sale~!
me:-.-?!

Datin D: Eh, tengok my husband beri I ni, kasut tembaga dari kristian lakcroKs , all the way from Paris tau.
me: @.@

Asian Chick: It's not just a beg, it's louiSSSSSS VUITton???
Trendy snatch thief: -@.@-??!

erk...?!
Falls under mentioned category? Fret no more, click here and you will be one step closer to a pair of Kristian LobuTIN. :P

Have fun. :)

p/s: Try to "guess" the pronunciation before you click on the speaker icon, its more fun cause sometimes, the correct way to pronounce certain label is wayyyy.... different.

*insert laugh*

:)

I've cut my hair. :P

2008-07-25T20:10:00.003+08:00

just a random note. ;)

...cukup untuk pulang ke rumah.

2008-07-06T23:13:00.010+08:00

Honestly i dont have anything to ~~bitch~~ blog about. But there is this overwhelming urge to write something. So here goes...

Been dying to catch SEPI the movie and I finally did today. With Dazie.
:D

In case you might be wondering, the title for my post derive from a really really really sad scene in the movie. And as cliche as this may sound, yes peeps I support the local scene. Movies, music etc. I believe that if we don't support them, who else will kan? I love watching movies, regardless of it's language. Throw me any movie as long as the it has weight, depth and issues that touches my heart, I'll watch it. This include Buatan Malaysia movies.
Well in my opinion, Sepi is a well written, well directed movie with really nice plot and storyline. My only critic is that although it is REALLY sad-

IT'S called S.E.P.I.

So I really wish it was sadDER??.

:S

The trailer:

Basically Sepi unfolds 3 stories of 3 main casts. My favourite is Imaan's. I shall not elaborate further and you peeps out there please give this movie a chance.
:p

Another thing that i wanna blog about is changes. I know I know that I know that I am really emotionally and mentally burned. i IS changed. But not really for the better. I know that myself. I think I've lost many things-momentums, focus, goals, ambitions, passion, hope and senses along the way these couple years, and what i really need now is time to find the missing piece(S). I don't know what it is. All I know is that I need me-time, I need to learn to change- I am insecure, at times scared, intimidated perhaps- of LIFE. Maybe it's time to not be so afraid anymore.
And just let go.

I is changing. For instance I hated coffee, because it gives me headache....
But now I enjoy drink 3 in 1 white coffee to stay awake.

Dos(2) sachets please.

Sigh...

Why Am I Your Friend?

2008-07-02T18:02:00.000+08:00

Just being random.

Leave me comment.

If you have the chance to go back & change something... wat would it be?

2008-06-19T22:09:00.002+08:00

Oh wait... You can't.
:(

Fashions fade. Style is eternal.

2008-06-03T16:45:00.006+08:00

August 1, 1936- June 1, 2008
(pic: yves saint laurent main page)

Farewell Yves Henri Donat Mathieu Saint Laurent

.thank you for democratizing fashion.

.

2008-06-01T19:59:00.003+08:00

image: http://brindi12.deviantart.com/art/RuN-RuN-RuN-63042657

puas sudah aku berlari

mungkin sudah tiba masanya
aku berhenti dan
menyembah bumi
lantas
pergi selamanya
dari sini.

Today

2008-05-25T04:16:00.001+08:00

I'M CONTENTED =)

Repost:- Pain

2008-05-25T00:53:00.001+08:00

I love you.
I myself borne witness to my love for you.
I don't care what you are wearing.

...or what you've bought me.

I just want you here.
Wanting me...

Time is running out. I won't love you unconditionally that much longer.
And soon...

I...

... won't...

... love...

... you...

... at all....

.

Jumpers- Audition Rejects

2008-05-16T00:24:00.008+08:00

The Dude Who Got The Role

The Wannabes
Mission 101: Jump as high as possible, with cool mid-air-actions (Duh...)
Requirements: Legs (Double Duh...)

Kepep: Belum lagi la Zeon, Meera. Aleeya belum datang lagi
Me: Ader aku kesah... -.-

Take one:

Take two:

....then, this happened:

Hidup

2008-05-15T21:01:00.008+08:00

Bila berkata tentang hidup, banyak perkara yang boleh diungkapkan. Suka, sedih, amarah dan mungkin juga kecewa.
Dan kadang kadang hidup itu tidak adil. Penuh muslihat dan tatkala kita leka, kita sungkur menyembah hilaian tawa yang sinis.
Hidup penuh dengan sandiwara. Lautan manusia yang masing masing bertopeng untuk menutup kecelaan diri. Ragam dan aksi yang diolah semata mata untuk mengabui pandangan mata umum.
Bersendirian di sudut ini, ku lihat nun jauh...

Hidup, kau berlalu pergi di depan mataku.

"Kadang kadang orang yang paling kita sayang adalah orang yang paling susah untuk kita sayangi." Cinta

earGASM

2008-04-13T11:41:00.005+08:00

Mariah-Stay In Love

I Stay In Love
Baby, I stay in love with you

Dying inside cause I can't stand it
Make or break up
Can't take this madness
We don't even really know why
All I know is baby I
Try and try so hard
To keep our love alive
If you dont' know me at this point
Then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me
That unconditional love I used to feel
It's no mistaking
We're just erasing
From our hearts and minds

And I know we said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like 'Oh well'
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
Baby, baby
I stay in love with you

Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Baby, I stay in love with you

It cuts so deep
It hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me
I ain't the same no more
We still need each other
When we stumble and fall
How we gon' act
Like what we had
Ain't nothin' at all

What I wanna do is
Ride shot-gun next to you
With the top down like we used to
Hit the block
Proud in that SU(V)
We both know our heart is breaking
Can we learn from our mistakes
I can't last one moment alone

We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like 'Oh well'
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you
Now no matter what I do
Baby, baby
I stay in love with you

E=MC2 hit stores April 14th.

An Evolution

2008-04-03T22:57:00.004+08:00

Image board.
New Assignment.

*lying on a remote beach somewhere. I gaze longingly at the evening sun as it sets, only to realize that it's all in my mind.*

sigh........

Merah itu Cinta

2008-03-25T12:33:00.004+08:00

tidak selalu kegelapan yang mengantarkan seseorang pada kematian.
kadang kelihatan cahaya juga menyesatkan dan mengantarkan kepada ketiadaan...
pada kematian.
kematian cuma reka rasa pikiran.
kerna bila kita inginkan kematian silakan hidup tapi bersembunyi dari merahnya cahaya.
gue udah lelah bersembunyi. gue siap ngadap-in cahaya itu.
dan kali ini gua takan mungkin tersesat...

bahkan dalam gelap sekalipun.

I finally did it...

2008-02-25T10:13:00.004+08:00

I crashed the car. The side skirt is totally kemek-ted/wrecked. F.U.C.K.E.D to be exact. Johnnie is not happy.

Surprise surprise...

Dear ALL

2008-02-12T00:28:00.001+08:00

Someone once asked me why I tend to write sad and melancholy stuff. I dunno. I guess I am sad and melancholy la... tsk tsk...

Dear Me

2008-02-12T00:27:00.000+08:00

Take all the time you need. When you feel like crying, cry. When you feel like you need to be alone, be alone. Give yourself what you need. And when you need to, ask others to support you as you seek what only you can find. As you said the other day, the world just keeps on going no matter what. The world will keep on going but it will not leave you behind. The experience you're living every day is one that will speed you ahead of the rest of the world. It will progress you past many of your peers and drop you in a place that will allow you to experience life more fully and in greater depth. Live it with all your heart and don't be ashamed of the pain.

R.I.P

2008-01-23T08:18:00.000+08:00

April 4, 1979 - January 22, 2008

Couldn't get access to com and internet for 2 days, and when I finally did this morning, I found out that Heath Ledger had passed away. AT 28. I can't say that I am his die hard big fan or something, but something about his death, strucked me like I'm being slapped across the face- a million times. Maybe it's the first thing I saw today on the web, or maybe it's just a realisation that life is really unpredictable, and at times we have indeed taken it for granted.

If I had no more time
No more time left to be here
Would you cherish what we had?
Was it everything that you were looking for?
If I couldn’t feel your touch
And no longer were you with me
I’d be wishing you were here
To be everything that I’d be looking for
I don’t wanna forget the present is a gift
And I don’t wanna take for granted the time you may have here with me
‘Cause Lord only knows another day is not really guaranteed

So every time you hold me
Hold me like this is the last time
Every time you kiss me
Kiss me like you’ll never see me again
Every time you touch me
Touch me like this is the last time
Promise that you’ll love me
Love me like you’ll never see me again

Still in complete shocked. So won't write much.

THAT CHICK is Mizz Mer-raa-yaah~!

2008-01-20T21:32:00.001+08:00

FIERCE/ or plain SLUTTY???
*psst the album cover might get banned in Malaysia, kan???*

**********MY SOLUTION***********

kidddddiinnnngggggg!!!!!

Aside from that voice, I don't know why I like Mariah Carey. Seriously Mariah, why oh why do you have to make yourself look so 'tacky’ and ‘desperate’... I mean COME ON A HAT??? You have the voice, you are turning 40(no offense), so i beg you PLEASSSSEEEE PUT SOME CLOTHES ON. Sexiness comes naturally, trying hard and you will look trashy. *urgh!*

Anyho... THAT CHICK, Mariah forthcoming 11th album is set to release this coming April 1st. CAN'T WAIT~!

Lesson Learned

2008-01-20T20:33:00.000+08:00

A Message by George Carlin:

The paradox of our time in history is that:-
We have taller buildings but shorter tempers.
Wider freeways , but narrower viewpoints.
We spend more, but have less.
We buy more, but enjoy less.
We have bigger houses and smaller families
More conveniences, but less time.
We have more degrees but less sense.
More knowledge, but less judgment.
More experts, yet more problems.
More medicine, but less wellness.
We drink too much,
smoke too much,
spend too recklessly,
laugh too little,
drive too fast,
get too angry,
stay up too late,
get up too tired,
read too little,
watch TV too much,
and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values.
We talk too much,
love too seldom,
and hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life.
We've added years to life not life to years.
We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor.
We conquered outer space but not inner space.
We've done larger things, but not better things.
We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul.
We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice.
We write more, but learn less.
We plan more, but accomplish less.
We've learned to rush, but not to wait.
We build more computers to hold more information,
to produce more copies than ever,
but we communicate less and less.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion,
big men and small character,
steep profits and shallow relationships.
These are the days of two incomes but more divorce,
fancier houses, but broken homes.
These are days of quick trips,
disposable diapers,
throwaway morality,
one night stands,
overweight bodies,
and pills that do everything from cheer,
to quiet, to kill.
It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom.
A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight,
or just ignore it.
Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.
Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.
Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.
Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it.
A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.
Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.
Give time to love, give time to speak!
And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER: Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away. - George Carlin.

repost: For the Nature!

2008-01-13T23:29:00.001+08:00

This is a posting from my very-much-as-dodo-as-me-kawan, xu who discovered this from her very highly genius XU kawan~!
u discovered something(!) XU KAWAN! OMG you're like a genius or something. Same rank as Edison or Newton~! guling2 atas lantai ketawa

Here goes:

Accidentally right-clicked a contact's name in Msn leads me to a great realisation, I have found the meaning of the msn icon [i'm] .Okay okay I know I'm slow, but, better slow than ~~nothing~~ never right?

().

I got this link: http://im.live.com/Messenger/IM/Home/

I'm sure there will be plenty of people do not bother clicking that link, even with some lame excuses like it is blocked by pop up manager whatever whatever. So, I'm here to explain about it, not because I'm too bored that I have nothing to do, or just want to blog about something, I really want to help out the society.

It is definitely not hard to help out, a simple step of typing a word helps the world. Yeap, I'm going to explain here, with the aids of Shern's explanation.

Below is quoted from MSN site:
"The i’m™ Initiative from Windows Live Messenger™ makes helping your favorite cause as easy as sending an instant message. Every time you start a conversation using i’m, we share a portion of our advertising revenue with some of the world's most effective social cause organizations."

It means, if you are participated, whenever you make a chat using Msn Messenger, a percentage of the profit gained through advertising is shared with the social cause organization. It's just that easy, ideal for lazy fellows like me ^^

Now, you need to have Windows Live Messenger version 8.1 or above. Don't know how to check? Not to worry, it is as easy as clicking help on the menu bar, then select the About messenger. If you do not have it, not to panic, it is free to download, free to use, free to enjoy the connection with all your friends.

Lazy to download? I have expected it, here is the direct link to the msn messenger installer: Download Windows Live Messenger

Just click it and you can get the latest Msn messenger, you can even save your time surfing the website to download it. Actually, I'm not sure whether it is legal to post such direct link here, for the sake of helping the world, I think it is justified. =) For those who have the latest messenger, of course you can skip the downloading step.

Then, you just need to add a text code into your display name. Reference: http://im.live.com/Messenger/IM/Join/

Here's a list of the text codes and its causes:

*red+u American Red Cross
*bgca Boys & Girls Clubs of America
*naf National AIDS Fund
*mssoc National Multiple Sclerosis Society
*9mil ninemillion.org
*sierra Sierra Club
*help StopGlobalWarming.org
*komen Susan G. Komen for the Cure
*hsus The Humane Society of the United States
*unicef U.S. Fund for UNICEF
*wwf World Wide Fund
*one ONE Campaign
*mod
*care CARE

Ps: There's still some other causes which are not listed here, apparently msn's site doesn't list out everything. *one is figured by Michelle coincidentally, but unfortunately I don't know what cause it stands for..

I do hope my readers here to appreciate my will to help, it is not easy to search for the causes one by one and look for the "About us" part. To repay me, please do help in this project, it is not hard at all.. Thank you. Let's save the world!

LATE.... BUT....

2008-01-03T19:57:00.000+08:00

makeup- models own
clothes: models own
acc: models own
models: Grace and Xu, No-Experienced Model Management

HAPPY NEW YEAR PPL~!!!!!

Have a blessed 2008~!

Happy Schweet 19 Miss Leong

2008-01-01T20:28:00.000+08:00

En and me... when we were little... A little Ang Mo-ish.

Wat the *tut* happened?! ;)

Anyho... Happy Bday Darl~!
Hugz and kisses and from me -sealed with amylase and germs. :)

I need....

2007-12-06T22:05:00.000+08:00

A BIG FAT B!TCH SLAP

ELEANOR

2007-11-24T10:48:00.001+08:00

It's darl's 19th and I wanna wish her happy happy happy burfday~!

♥ ~~heavily photoshopped but do I looked like I give a fookie? .l.~~

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

the tw♥ of us need l♥♥k n♥ m♥re

We b♥th f♥und what we were l♥♥king f♥r

With a friend t♥ call my ♥wn

I'll never be al♥ne

And y♥u, my friend, will see
Y♥u've g♥t a friend in me.

♥

This just in...

2007-11-18T00:03:00.001+08:00

It's official, my most anticipated Xmas holiday.
My first family trip in AGES.
My first ever trip to China,
or anyway overseas... is

CANCELED.

Surprise...! Not...
whatever la, it's not like I haven't foreseen this coming...
It sounded too good to be true.
But it would've been nice though...

China... Family vacation.

gah...

TAGGED PALING SUSAH AWARD

2007-11-15T17:22:00.000+08:00

First of all... to B.A.K...

!@##@!$%$#%$&*#!!@@!@

*CLEAR THROAT*

Here goes...

Here's how it works:
Use the first letter of your name to answer each question.
Must be genuine places/names etc. Nothing made up.
Can't use your own name for name questions.
If you can't answer, skip to the next one.

I'm *sadly*... Zeonicholas D'eric Chai... Z:

1. Famous singer : Zac Hanson
2. Four letter word : Zouk
3. Street : -skip-*u try
4. Colour : zesty green
5. Gift / Present : Zoo-candle-lit-dinner
6. Vehicle : -skip-
7. Things in souvenir shop : Zipper keychain lmao
8. Boy name: Ziggy- Bob Marley's
9. Girl name: Zahara- Brangelina's
10. Movie title : Zorro, The Mask
11. Drink : Zombie
12. Occupation : Zoologist, Zookeeper
13. Celebrity : Zac Efron
14. Magazine : Z
15. US City : N/A
16. Pro sports : Zzzz *it takes a lot of training to sleep with eyes open kaaayyy*
17. Fruit/Vege : Zucchini
18. Reason for being late for work : Zzzzzzzz
19. Something you throw away : Zip that is broken
20. Something you shout : ZARA 90% SALES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Herm I tagged GRACE.

2007-11-09T00:00:00.000+08:00

I AM A BIG FUGLY
B!TCH.

.Screw me.

ps- I know you said it's ok, but I know it's not. So I am sorry.

Happy Diwali

2007-11-08T10:01:00.001+08:00

Have a brightly lit one. :D

Trick or Treat

2007-10-31T09:45:00.001+08:00

Happy Halloween Y'all

2007-10-31T01:15:00.000+08:00

In Love Story, (1970); Oliver Barrett IV (Ryan O’Neal) once said that "Love means never having to say you're sorry".

......IT'S TRUE.

The waiting

2007-10-30T03:19:00.000+08:00

"“Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering.” Paulo Coelho"

My glass is half empty as I am writing this. It's been so long since I last felt this way. Hurtful, excruciating pain as I try to choose whether to wait or to forget. It's been only a couple of days since it happened but I can't seems to let go of the past. Actually it's not like I never let go, rather I was never released in the first place. Left hanging at this cliff as I try to cling on to the past, while not knowing whether would it be a better promises that tomorrow might bring. Is it worth waiting? Or I am just wasting my time trying to catch the wind with my bare hands. I am really at lost here. Am I given two choices here? And I have to pick one? Is it a clear sign that I am just too blind to see. Too afraid to see? I thought it will get better each day, but silence and emotions rivalry are killing me. What am I to do?

As I wrapping up this post, I look at the glass.

It's still half empty.

LOVE is a 4 letter word- an excuse for emotional blackmail

2007-10-25T01:32:00.000+08:00

Well I guess I'm trying to be
Nonchalant about it
And I'm going to extremes to prove
I'm fine without you
But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath a disguise of a smile
Gradually I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel
And I lie convincingly
Cause I don't want to reveal
The fact that I'm suffering
So I wear my disguise
Till I go home at night
And turn down all the lights
And then I break down and cry

Puisi Untuk Seseorang

2007-10-24T18:59:00.000+08:00

Puisi Tentang Seseorang-Melly
Ku lari ke hutan kemudian menyanyiku,.
Ku lari ke pantai kemudian teriakku
Sepi..sepi dan sendiri aku benci
Ingin bingar aku mau di pasar..
Bosan aku dengan penat
Enyah saja kau pekat
Seperti berjelaga jika ku sendiri

Pecahkan saja gelasnya biar ramai
Biar mengaduh sampai gaduh
Ada malaikat menyulam jaring labah-labah belang di tembok keraton putih
Kenapa tidak kau goyangkan saja locengnya biar terdera
Atau aku harus lari kehutan
Belok ke pantai..?

Bosan aku dengan penat
Dan enyah saja kau pekat
Seperti berjelaga jika ku sendiri

Seize that moment... Or...

2007-10-22T00:01:00.000+08:00

I was on my way to buy 2 seats for THE LAST LEGION (gold class) at GSC when i saw this

An adorable pink color oink in OU... and it was adorable... and I swear it keep looking at me as if trying the make me take it home. Anyways I can just feel the connection and the pig was like giving me THAT seductive stares... batting that eyelid... "take me... take me" ok... exaggerating... but then, I was like, no lah... beli tickets dulu, then go check it out again.

So there, after getting the tics... I terus go back to the same spot I saw oink and guess what???

*POOF*

Oink is no longer there!!!!!

So with a heavy heart i left the scene with a new lesson:

Seize the moment of excited curiosity on any subject to solve your doubts; for if you let it pass, the desire may never return, and you may remain in ignorance.
William Wirt
US politician (1772 - 1834)

PISSED

2007-09-28T23:04:00.000+08:00

I am FUCKING PISSED at my dad because he is MAJOR FUCKING PISSED at me for not being able to hear the phone's ringing -which happened to be on silent mode- and answering it. Fyi I was having class.

And I called him before that and the phone was engaged. Apparently he was playing golf and that's the reason why he can't pick up so I should be more understanding- as according to him.

I text-ed him when i couldn't get him. Apparently he saw my missed call, -and he didn't see the sms, which before i confronted he at home he was like "I didn't RECEIVED any sms" -and called me back, twice, but I didn't pick up, that's when he became MAJOR FUCKING PISSED at me for not being able to hear the phone's ringing -which happened to be on silent mode- and answering it. Fyi I was having class.

When I realised that I have 2 missed calls, I quickly call back, and this is how it went:

Me: Daddy, I....

Fucking PISSED Dad: DON'T YOU KNOW HOW TO ANSWER THE PHONE????

Me: I wuz having class so I.....

Fucking PISSED Dad: NO LAS... U ALWAYS DO THIS (? what the fuck???).... I WUZ SOOO WORRIED THAT SOMETHING MIGHT HAPPENED TO YOU!!!! CAN'T YOU PICK UP THE PHONE????!!!

Me: I was having class, and it was on silent mode.... I text....

MAJOR Fucking PISSED Dad: (act blur) NO.... I DIDN'T RECEIVED ANY SMS???? I SAW YOUR MISSED CALL SO I QUICKLY CALL BACK.... YOU! WHEN I TELL YOU YOU ARE NOT HAPPY BUT YOU ALWAYS LEAVE YOUR PHONE ON SILENT!!!! (what???) WHY CAN'T YOU JUST ANSWER THE PHONE????? YOU SHOULD AT LEAST TEXT ME!!! (huh???)

Fucking PISSED Me: I DID....!!!! I WAS HAVING CLASS!!!! WHY DO U HAVE TO BE SO EMOTIONAL!!!!

MAJOR Fucking PISSED DAD: NO LAS!!!!! I WASN'T BEING EMOTIONAL!!!!!!
(hung up)

Fucking PISSED Me: *speechless*

so... there goes...
***********************************************************************************

When I arrived home, he was in the living room, and I haven't even step my left foot into the house when...

Fucking PISSED Dad: I WASN'T BEING EMOTIONAL....!!!!

************************************************************************************
here goes......

ps- 2 words: midlife crisis

Quote of The Week

2007-09-26T22:00:00.001+08:00

"In Iran,we don't have homosexuals like in your country (the USA)... We don't have that in our country."
Iranian President Mahmood Ahmadinejad said Monday in a speech at Columbia University in New York.

-.-~! One thing on condemning others, but to be in denial???

ONE WORD- lmao.

Dear lazy...

2007-09-23T00:04:00.000+08:00

Please stop stalking me. With you around I tend not to blog. I sleep like a pig. I don't do my homework, of which dah piled up like crazy, which causes anxiety and stress, which led to sickness and zits and stroke and mental disturbance.

So leave me alone.

I beg you.

Please.

Yours truly,
D'zeon.

HAPPY BURFDAY SUPERWOMAN!

2007-09-11T18:00:00.000+08:00

Ini A-moi 19 tahun ali ini.

Have a super blasting day and many happy returns Grace! Happy to have you as part of my extended family. And congratulation on the broadcast journalist job offer. Proud of you babe.

Mis Tres Hermanas @>-----------

2007-09-02T23:26:00.002+08:00

Words can't describe how much I love my siblings. I hope these photos might help.

(L-R) Zyndria Dolly Chai, Zyphenie Donna Chai, Zywaynie Dazie Chai.
Donna supa(!) early Bday celebr8ion.

(L-R)
Ly, Na, Dedeng, Kolas

(L-R) Leha, Joyah, Kinah.

(L-R) Jakun, Jakun, Jakun.

Then... (in our GUESS KIDS :p)

Now... (we still do designers :p)

Donna went over-the-sea to Sabah to pursue degree in Child Psychology. Dolly's leaving on the 7th for China. She got a lucrative job offer to work as a chef in Mission Hills Golf Club in Shenzhen. That leaves Dazie and me. The house seems emptier...

....I'll never let you go
So, never let me go
I will be your journey
And you will be my road
Down the stormy path
Love will never come to pass
It will be an anchor
Although the winds may blow
And through the depths of high and low
Wherever you will go, I'll follow
To the end, back again
You know
Won't let you fall
Fall out of love
'Cause together we'll be holding on
'Cause all we have is us
Won't let you go
Go away again
Because life don't mean nothing at all
If I don't have your love...

@>---------------------

Selamat Hari Merdeka

2007-08-31T01:43:00.000+08:00

It's the 50th! Tiba masanya kita menjadi bangsa Malaysia yang sebenar-benarnya...
Tiba masanya kita bangun dan mencuci segala rasa prasangka terhadap sesama kita. dan mampu melihat menelusi warna kulit, perbezaan kaum dan menghormati antara satu sama lain. Bangga menjadi rakyat Malaysia.
Make a difference PEOPLE. Why not today?

The new chapter and the M session.

2007-08-26T00:01:00.001+08:00

Herm college started last Monday and it's been great. Love the new glass see through look. I totally felt that the whole much needed revamp has been nothing but marvelouso... :)
Beside the new look, few major changes has been made for us. Because the CIDT students will be joining us for this sem, the class are now split into 2 groups. I was placed in group two. Embeng is also in my group. Cl*t~ness.

Then on Friday night got a text from G that she wanna hang out in my house. Lol~ness, but couldn't invite her over coz some peeps in my house are kinda anti social la. :S We end up agreeing to meet up in McD's instead. Had a blasting great totally feel good time- better than ~~sex~~ first time.
Love ya babe. We MUST do it more. Though only when I got back I remember I owed u some money la for our fries. Lol~ness!

I want you to know that I ♥ YOU- my most truly-genuine-bestest-friend.

Winnie the Pooh once said "If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day, so I never have to live without you."

How very selfish of her kan...

Well G, I'll say that "If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred PLUS one day, so you will never have to live without ME and feel lonely."

Tagged!

2007-08-21T09:25:00.000+08:00

Herm got tagged by gRemus, so here goes:

5 things found in my bag

1 . sketch book- handy for ideas and scribbling when bored. ;)

2 . wallet- $$$

3 . my designer eyeglasses- makes me look designer

4 . 3 pencil cases- 1 for pens, 1 for pencils, and 1 for miscellaneous items- erasers, stapler, puncher, 7.5 measuring tape(yes measuring tape, freak in me rite?)

5 . lip-balm&tissue&freshener&air-badak-&daily-planner

5 things found in my wallet

1 . cash cash cash

2 . loose coins

3 . 2004 Haagen Dazs calendar- lol.

4 . Alfa name cardS (5)- each time I thought I lost em, so I keep taking and tucking them in my wallet.

5 . condom- you never know... ;p

5 no, 6 fav things in my room

1 . my supa canggih drafting table. I j'adore You!!!

2 . my wardrobe... Though I wish I have bigger space...

3 . bed- for the must needed ~~beauty~~ sleep!

4 . laptop

5 . what's laptop without Maxis broadband? (flip my hair :p)

6. My interior design and fashion mags.

5 things ive always wanted to do

1 . Eat like no tomorrow, and not gaining any faa'a'a' in return.

2 . Get better result. Ish!

3 . Love. Haha

4 . Make love. Lol

5 . Make love outdoor. lmao.

5 things im currently into

1 . hawt stuffs

2 . white V tees

3 . Paul Smith's ~~fall~~ Spring 2008 Collection<>

4 . hawt stuffs :)

5 . Myself? Lol Cant think of any....

5 people im goina tag

1 . sarny

2 . cyn

3 . steff

4. hehn

5 . ~~grace~~ Jay Elle

The New (S)

2007-08-19T06:33:00.000+08:00

Well since it's a new year (no, not talking about 2008 new year but Year 2 Student), I've decided to blast this blog a new smashing uber hawt look. -.-
Anyhoo, as you can see, no more black page(so much for black is classic phuff...) and I have decided to go green.

I have also done some additional changes by omitting and adding new elements to the right corner to the blog. At the very top right there is a calendar planner, a summary of my schedule for the new sem. I hope with this section those blur sotong out there wont be calling me during my exam weeks for "early Xmas partay". -.-.
Then there is the "my other blog" which provides link to my much neglected malay novel, and a deviant art page that I just recently signed up to, after very much persuasion from a very talented designer: this gurl. Then there is a new SHOUT box coz the previous one very cacated la... And last but not least a nick name to all my designer's babies...

So tell me...

Like the new look?

Or does it stink?

*TOAST TO A NEW YEAR, A NEW CHAPTER, A NEW MOI~!*

Random thoughts on...

2007-08-19T02:55:00.000+08:00

Generally I know I have been a fuglisian(read: fat ugly asian) for bumming around and doing absolute nothing to better myself or to contribute something positive/useful to the world during this almost 1 month sem break. I mean I'd planned a lot of stuffs for myself to do or start on during the sem break but looking back, indeed there has been nada and complete slacking throughout a whole freaking month. A month? What happened to Spanish/French class? Batik competition(not entirely slacking tho, tak cukup resources and the process cost a bomb!), charitable work, etc etc???

I mean the least I could have done was to read the still-in-bookstores-good-quality-unopened interior books I have bought and piled for the past 6 months. At least improve my very much cacated technical drawings kan(why do I have to do technicals???). Or instead of storing it in my mind and knowing that it will all slipped away and vanished by the very second i do something else, sit down and list all possible ideas and sketching then to life. That is was good designers should be doing right?

Instead I stuffed myself with McD for 3 meals(yeap, did it yesterday) or shop like nobody business. I mean who buys 6 white tees in 5 days for no apparent reasons except for fashion fetish???(yes people, I am addicted to white V neck tees) Well except rich designers of course. But I am not even up to par with those designers, and they bought their stuffs with their own ~~ridiculously overcharged fees~~ hard earn money kan... Unlike me who splurged on clothes like crazy but if you noticed, and you don't have to look hard enough, the visibility of my dad's wrinkles has mysteriously double... *matila kena sumpah anak durhaka... I seriously need to cut down on spendings. But that means no more 3 meals a week in Paddington's. *noooo....

Anyhoo, I am kinda excited la the holidays is going to be over soon. Well yes I do (sheepishly) admit that I am all for another month of hols, but I think it's high time to go back and do some creative thinking and work on to improve myself to be closer to achiving the "designer" status.

But during the break and previous semester, I have been doing a lot of thinking on whether I have chosen the right course. I know I know most of you by now would be like 'what?' or 'drama....' but seriously I realized the I have been so focussed to be an Interior Architect since like Form 1 and now, the fire kinda like... how do I put it... erm, almost "burned out"? I know its a little odd kan coz I know that all my life I have dedicate, prepared and equipped myself with "decent" knowledge for interior design, so that at least I wont be a lost cat when I enter college, but nothing prepares me for the real s***.

I felt so oppressed for the past year la. In college I feel like we are not free enough to explore things on our own... I mean forget the practicality and 'how you gonna f***ing built this bull shit' for a while, and just take a look at the ideas and at least apprecite them, if not nurture them to be better kan? And there is some lecturers who still doesnt embrace the technology. And of coz the plain favoritism thingy. Urgh.

But lately I've been thinking a lot about fashion design. But I still love doing interior... Or maybe foundation year in One Academy.
Decisions, decisions....

A WALK TO REMEMBER

2007-08-17T07:23:00.000+08:00

Our love is like the wind. I can't see it, but I can feel it.
-Landon, from A Walk to Remember

Best movie kan....
***tears***

Please

2007-08-04T02:07:00.001+08:00

....don't put high hopes on me.

Oh Lord, I Have Sin.

2007-08-03T00:01:00.000+08:00

Outing with Steffie, Weng, Bak, Josh and Jing.

Today I had tonnes of food. And tonnes of $$$ gone too.

LUNCH- I had Dave's Deli 1/4 chicken with double mashed potatoes(who eat coleslaw???). RM15.55

AFTER lunch and BEFORE MOVIE- Bakerzin's Coeur Noir(black core). It's layers of dark chocolate mousse and sacher sponge, with brandy cherries and hazelnut dacquoise at the base. RM10 [O.o!]

améliorez que le sexe... opps!

Movie- The Simpsons! F***in hilarious... And to think I didnt wanna watch it in the first place??? (smack own face) RM8

AFTER movie- Pancakes at Paddington House of Pancakes(Phop!). RM15

sedaaaappp...

Herm. Join Dazie after tea and had Starbuck's Chocolate Chip Blended. Venti. :) RM13

Then off to MPH. Bought 2 books. Total RM 63.72 after discount.

Leaving OU for dinner. Sempat peek at Gelato. Strawberry Yougurt. Dad's treat. RM 10

Dinner at Jack Charbroil, Medan D'sara. Had Smoked salmon for starter. Beef nachos. No soup. Main course was 200gram US rib eye. Had a little bit of fish off mom's plate. Tea. Wanna get dessert but nothing was appetizing. Still a litttttttle hungry...

Sinful day wasn't it? ~^o^~

PENANG TRIP! Day 001part1

2007-07-28T12:30:00.000+08:00

Hey Y'all! It's muah. Sorry for the much delayed post on Penang trip. Herm basilcally been busy doing nothing. So today gonna blog about....

PENANG TRIP!

Day 001part1

*msg alert*
"I'M GOING(I think he meant coming)... Pls bring student card... Don't forgot(I think he meant forget)- Michael"

>"ok"

Arrived in coll at 7.45am. Didn't get much sleep as trying to finish my design on a competition that I am working on. Shh...
Anyways, it's freaking early and I need my sleep. Armed with my military bag stuffed with essentials, and my blanket and pillow in my arms, I marched towards Alfa. Saw Derek(no, not seeing double, it's this other dude with the same name as me... different spelling though), Jessey, Sushi, Guan Yin Ma(which mean itu Guan Yin... alah itu Buddist punya religious figure... sorry my infos on religion is sub-zero. Her name is Chris btw... tho both do ring a religious feel to it dontcha think) and Grace. Tengkoo came and she was like laughing at the sight of my blanket and pillow... and I was like "laugh la.. but tonight when the mosquitoes start attacking you..."

That sentence kinda drain the blood out of her system.

-smiles-

Anyways, tonnes were still asleep/on the way/on the way to toilet/etc ie not here yet so i went to Al Ehsan to have my breakfast. Michael was already there. Ada itu Chi Wah, Eric, Oriskee, Soo Har also. Had Ribena and roti bakar. Then off to college again to register my name. Ah Koh was sooo busy with the name list and stuff. kesian....

Where's Pecky?

Surprisingly so many juniors join us for this trip. And they haven't even started the sem yet. We finally embarked on our 4 hours(die!) road trip to Penang. And then the "booooo" thing came up when Ah Koh broke the news that Pecky wont be joining us as she has ditched the trip to join another trip to Angkor Wat. !@#%^%$

Anyways there were basically tonnes of gila dongs, cam whoring and poker card session on the bus.
oh ya... And makan.

Me, Soo Har and Tengkoo(the kanak kanak Ribena at the back -.-!)

Angel(the wats-dat-smell- look), Jeryn(slam dunk action with sleepy eyes) and Gatsby(slam dunk action with mouth open). I hope I got their name rite... Matilah kena sumpah...

"u want??" Sushi and Jessey.

We had a stop in Bidor, Perak for breakfast.

I had the in house infamous Duck drumstick noodle. Clit size potion and fucking expensive. That Ah Sam andartu/andalansia(anak dara tua/ anak dara lanjut usia) is like mch rude. Bitch, don't give me attitude ok, you WORK here... remember???
Thank god Eric came to rescue and save the day. That apparently I-DON'T-SPEAK-CANTONESE-BITCH trick works wonders. Her mouth somehow became rather small after that. :)

I love bitch-straightening 101.

The RM 6.00(!!!!) noodles.

Then the usual old man selling the scratch and win jackpot thing came... I shoo him off but to my (gulp) surprise Guan Yin Ma called him back and bought a few tickets. Guan Yin Ma???

After the I'm-Not-So-Full meal

Next door table peeps still eating...

Michael, Sushi, Jessey, Soo Har.

Ah Koh didnt makan wor... dunno y.
so He's a lil coo coo...

oookkkaaayyy....

Anyways, kinda left that place at 11.30am.

Michael.... NOOOOOO.....

We get on board and continue our quest to find the Island of Pearl(watever la!)
Cam whore as usual. Stupid jokes cracked by Eason on this and that... Cam whore some more. Sleep sleep sleep. Then the bus stop at a Petrol Station coz someone need to go shit.

Cam whore some more.

Separated at birth????

the yi, er, san (1,2,3) pose. Michaels second finger is photoshop-ed from the other finger as he only show 1 finger instead of TWO! tsk tsk...

We arrived at approximately... actually dunno what time. But it was afternoon la... Everyone was hungry and we had lunch in Soo Har house. Soo Har's mom is a great cook. period. No pics sorry was too hungry to take pictures.

After lunch... we headed to Cheong Fatt Tze house aka The Blue Mansion. Yes... It's the same house that was use in the film Indochine starring the famous Catherine Deneuve.
One word-
breathtaking.
The detail work on the mansion and the stories behind every steps taken to do it is amazing! No camera allowed in the mansion but you can always visit the site Cheong Fatt Tze Mansion for more info. Our tour "guidess" was a passionate woman who really knows the house in and out. But isn't that her job? haha. Anyways, she'd mentioned her name but lupa already. How passionate is she? Well when she talks about the mansion or the owner, Cheong Fatt Tze, she will shuts her eyes and pearls of sweat will start trickling down her forehead. Then one finger will point out and she has this twitching/ hand jerking thing going on as though she's possessed or sumthing. A suddenly urge to laugh overwhelm me but I have to keep a straight face cause my face and her where like inches close... it's close trust me. lmao... But she's a nice person. Very straight forward and speaks her mind. Oh back to the house... It's super feng shui influenced and my advice to those thats gonna settle down and buy a house.. go visit Cheong Fatt Tze Mansion. It's very *thumbs up*

here's some pics from the exterior

Fact 1: it's Me! *duh
Fact2: Shot from lower angle adds 100 pounds... I have DOUBLE CHIN???? horror!!!!
*banshee screams*

ok... next...

Group pics

Herm I guess I am going to continue Penang Trip! 001part02 later(er) k~!
tired la.
Till then....

to be continued...

BACK!!!!!!!!!!

2007-07-22T00:20:00.000+08:00

Life was a drag. period

and boring... *yawn.

was....

But not anymore... Habis my Sem 3 already! Currently on my one month break... Yes yes I have been sooooo caught up with assignments and due dates and assessments etc. But not anymore... Or at least not until August! ahaha. So happy...

see...

*rite...

Anyways wont be here till next Wed as I am leaving tmr for a trip to Penang. Tad boring but I need to do my research and some stuff that I will post later la ok. Promise u tonnes of pics of myself and if u don't believe me, see it for yourself that I am now down to size ZERO, thanks all of the sleepless nights and bakar itu tengah malam minyak to finish my work. (yeap... ZERO-ZEON)

herm, was contemplating on putting up my assignments pics... but I guess I'll do it later...
*think astro ad*

I got....
T
I
M
E

*dancing to 'I like big butts' and grin widely*

Anyho...
To all Alfa-ians and those who's going to balik kampungs, Happy Hols and DON'T FORGET TO REMEMBER ME OK! (lame) have a safe hols :p
And my other friends... will catch up and "bergayut luar" like gila dongs aite. I need those daily juices of ~~gossips~~ general infos! NOW!

ok. not now... But c yaz!
TAKE CARE!~
LOVE....

ps- Thanks to all the birthday greetings everyone- especially JL- he was the first! *kiasu betul! Love y'all to bits. And those who haven't wish me... *astro ad* U ALSO GOT TIME...;)

ciao!

2007-07-18T01:21:00.003+08:00

"The pleasures of love are pains that become desirable, where sweetness and torment blend, and so love is voluntary insanity, infernal paradise, and celestial hell -- in short, harmony of opposite yearnings, sorrowful laughter, soft diamond."
-- The Island of the Day Before, Chapter 28

It's has really been a long ride. And I am exhausted.

2007-05-29T01:17:00.000+08:00

Another month had gone by. It's a fast lane isnt it?
It's unbelievable that 1/2 year of 2007 has almost comes to an end. Looking back, it's been a rollercoaster ride- at least for me. Many things had happened along the way, good things, bad things, but basically a whole lot of ugly( make it fugly) things. They were moments that at those ugly times that I just tell myself that life is fucking hard to live. Moments that I am sure I have quit, yet somehow I'd made it thru. Moments that I have regretted my actions. Steps I wished I have not taken. I always see myself as an artist, who never knew when to stop. Painting a good picture is when you know when to step back, look at the canvas to see the whole picture, and stop... when it's completed. Anymore strokes, and the perfect piece is ruined. Actions which I thought will help the other, only to hurt another. Confrontations that I've braved myself to face, coz I don't wanna be that same old Zeonicholas D'eric Chai who is too afraid to stand up for himself, only to lose those that only I myself know how much they really meant too me. Many said I have changed. Changed?... Yeah. I know that. I have turned myself into someone that I myself loathe. I have become obnoxious dont I? I talk too much crap, I tell jokes that soo stupidly childish and I always crack stupid lame jokes that yeah... childish. I dunno, I guess that way the world will never quite know me. One question that always come to my mind lately though. Question that I dont really wanna know the answer. Who really cares?

<... Nobody

.....not really...

THIS IS THE LAST POST FOR NOW AS MY BLOG IS GOING TO BE ON HIATUS.

How long?

Can't tell for sure.

It's high time to do some searching.

Been lost too long already...

Lets Laugh At Monalisa!!!! ahahha

2007-05-19T00:06:00.000+08:00

1st sem asgmt. For Mr Koh 2D class.

Assignment #007- Lukis sampai Diri Terbunuh

2007-05-15T02:15:00.001+08:00

It's 2 :17:14 am. Tuesday.
Haven't bath in TWO days.
Total sleeping hours for 4 days: 8 hours
Result: Habis my perspectives.

Fyi, This is a design proposal that I have made for my latest project- Proposed interior design for a celebrity "client"- I picked Deanna Yusoff- at Mont Kiara Condo. The style that I am proposing to my client is Art Deco; the theme that I am going for is 50's Hollywood Glamour.

And here are the final 3 drawings....

media: Color Pencil, Art Marker and Photoshop ( for tweaking. :P)

(click on pics to enlarge)

The Living

The Master Bath

Media Room/Library/Guest Room

Anyways, favourite-test(coz i love them all!) room is the master bath. The mosaic/tiles work is juz breathtaking. The media room pulak have all the things that i want... Collectible movie poster(it's Attack of The 50ft Woman), huGe sectionals and a pop corn machine! and a SMEG fridge! *I WANT THEM ALL.... :p

So what do u guys think?
A little too much?
Ugly?
All comments welcome.
;P

Miss Sarny, my Bee-yotch Babe :p

2007-05-05T23:39:00.000+08:00

So bored today, so I decided to blog about Sarny...
Well... Here it is... Sarny...

(as told by Sarny)

miewsan
november 8th 1989
loves sweet and salty stuff
guys are jerks but i still love them
eyeliners and blushers
friends are important
it's not consider heels if it doesn't kill your feet
weird ass whore who swears a hell of alot
eccentric is my middle name
hate me if u wish to

So peeps... it's either u love or u hate her. I mean really HATE her... Those of you who does... Get a life and do something useless... like go eat c**t or something... Lol I so bad... I know rite...

Well, thx for coming to Alif (or ALPHA lmao!) and spreading the love, bee-yocthness, fun, and basically, that oh-so-famous noise pollutions of yours...

LARRRIIIKKKK!!!!!!!

well babe, hope we'll be like fren fren like... foRRRever and yeah...

Held your head high up Gurl... Coz you know you're my fav b!tch. :p
(ps- we wore the same colors that day! baby blue top & white bottom- so Capri kan... total h@wtness!!!)

AL KISAH ARKITEK HIASAN DALAMAN YANG TERLAMPAU

2007-05-03T01:06:00.000+08:00

Many of you might know that I really love BM.
Yes!
Bahasa Malaysia. I also love to write malay cerpen. But I knew that once I left highschool, my bahasa will go like really rusty... And I didn't want this to happen.

So I decided why not create another blog especially for my passions.

So here goes...

a telenovela (soap opera) in Bahasa Malaysia.

Below is the link

AL KISAH ARKITEK HIASAN DALAMAN YANG TERLAMPAU

Check it out ok. But let me warn you. The storyline is very very depressing. Yes.
Depressing with the capital D.

Life's a Bi@tch!

2007-05-02T23:53:00.000+08:00

it is kan.

well... maybe coz I am a bitch too...

ahaha.... been saying that a alot lately...

ME=BITCH.

sigh....

*

I Love Rufus New Song, New Album!

2007-05-01T01:56:00.000+08:00

Going To A Town- Rufus Wainwright

I'm going to a town that has already been burned down
I'm going to a place that has already been disgraced
I'm gonna see some folks who have already been let down
I'm so tired of America

I'm gonna make it up for all of the Sunday times
I'm gonna make it up for all of the nursery rhymes
They never really seem to want to tell the truth
I'm so tired of you, America

Making my own way home
Ain't gonna be alone
I got a life to lead, America
I got a life to lead

Tell me,
Do you really think you go to hell for having love?
Tell me,
And laugh at thinking everything that you've done is good?
I really need to know
After soaking the body of Jesus Christ in blood
I'm so tired of America
I really need to know

I may just never see you again
Or might as well
You took advantage of a world that loved you well
I'm going to a town that has already been burned down
I'm so tired of you, America

Making my own way home
Ain't gonna be alone
I got a life to lead, America
I got a life to lead
I got a soul to feed
I got a dream to need
And that's all I need

Making my own way home
Ain't gonna be alone
I'm going to a town that has already been burned down

> so yeah, I like the song and I like the video too! *though the empty gray room reminds me of Dido's Life For Rent : .p

Rufus Wainwright new album, Release The Stars is coming out on May 15th.

Easy... Brezzy... Beautiful... Covergirl!

2007-04-29T22:32:00.001+08:00

Herm... I miss those famous Covergirl commercials in ANTM la... So I decided to post all the commercials here... from cycle 4 onward.

enjoys~

CYCLE 4- Kahlen, Naima, Keenyah

CYCLE 5- Bre, Nik, Nicole

CYCLE 6- Jade, Joanie, Danielle

and now...
THE 2 LATEST CYCLES- Please leave now if do not wish to know the girls who have made it this far for both competitions.

DON'T SAY I DIDN'T WARNED YOU!!!

CYCLE 7

CYCLE 8

SAVE THE WORLD, SAVE THE CHEERLEADER!

2007-04-29T22:17:00.001+08:00

I *HEART* HEROES !

Catch Heroes every Wednesday 9pm on ASTRO Starworld.
Or anytime after the USA premier on Youtube :p

Petals by MARIAH CAREY <3

2007-04-29T14:33:00.001+08:00

I've often wondered if there's
Ever been a perfect family
I've always longed for undividedness
And sought stability

A flower taught me how to pray
But as I grew, that flower changed
She started flailing in the wind
Like golden petals scattering

CHORUS 1:
And I miss you dandelion
And even love you
And I wish there was a way
For me to trust you
But it hurts me every time
I try to touch you

But I miss you dandelion
And even love you

I gravitated towards a patriarch
So young predictably
I was resigned to spend my life
With a maze of misery

A boy and a girl befriended me
We're bonded through despondency
I stayed so long but finally
I fled to save my sanity

CHORUS 2:
And I miss you little sis and
Little brother
And I hope you realize
l'll always love you
And although you're struggling
You will recover
And I miss you little sis and
Little brother

So many I considered
Closest to me
Turned on a dime and sold me
Out dutifully
Although that knife was chipping
Away at me
They turned their eyes away and
Went home to sleep ...

CHORUS 3:
And I missed a lot of life
But l'II recover
Though I know you really like
To see me suffer
Still I wish that you and I'd
Forgive each other
'Cause I miss you, Valentine
And really loved you

I really loved you -
I tried so hard
But you drove me away
To preserve my sanity -

And I found the strength to break away
Fly...

Ambiguous Me

2007-04-29T13:23:00.000+08:00

I am undefined.
I am like a person behind silk screen. A shield that I have created myself. I am standing not on a crossroad, but gazillion roads that I can't seem to decide which one to take.
Actually I am tired of this life. Life that is so empty... meaningless. I have many friends... People I thought I know, but when I look closely, I realized how they are completely different from me.

Or me being completely different from them.

I am forced to make choices, living lies and accepting it. I hate life. But I hate myself in general.

Still, wait for me my friend...
...Coz it's hard to be alone...

...OUTSIDE...

OUTSIDE- Mariah Carey
It's hard to explain
Inherently it's just always been strange
Neither here nor there
Always somewhat out of place everywhere
Ambiguous
Without a sense of belonging to touch
Somewhere halfway
Feeling there's no one completely the same

Chorus

Standing alone
Eager to just
Believe it's good enough to be what
You really are
But in your heart
Uncertainty forever lies
And you'll always be
Somewhere on the
Outside

Verse

Early on, you face
The realization you don't
have a space
Where you fit in
And recognize you
Were born to exist

Chorus

Standing alone
Eager to just
Believe it's good enough to be what
You really are
But in your heart
Uncertainty forever lies
And you'll always be
Somewhere on the
Outside

And it's hard
And it's hard
And it's hard

Bridge

Irreversibly
Falling in between
And it's hard
And it's hard
To be understood
As you are
As you are
Oh, and God knows
That you're standing on your own
Blind and unguided
Into a world divided
You're thrown
Where you're never quite the same
Although you try-try and try
To tell yourself
You really are
But in your heart-uncertainty forever lies
And you'll always be
Somewhere on the outside

Petals

2007-04-29T12:40:00.000+08:00

I tried so hard not to think about it. I've tried so hard to understand. "She's my friend, she couldn't possibly do this to me!" To bring myself to come to term with it, but dahling your reasoning just doesn't make any sense. I have asked every single individual and NONE of them have the problem you are facing. So I begin to think. I mean if even at least ONE person have you problem, I could've probably accepted it, but NO ONE! FUCKING NO ONE! ARE YOU KIDDING ME? ARE YOU???

...or...

DO I ANNOYED YOU? DO I? TELL ME! Maybe I do...
Maybe you didn't wanna tell me to my face, considering how long we have been friends. So maybe by avoiding me... Sooner or later I will get this subtle hint. And if that's the case- I got it now. Maybe it's high time for us to move on. Maybe there were signs but I was just too blind to see it coming. Maybe I am no longer one of THE Hermes bags. Maybe I am already just the fungus at the corner of the Hermes bags.

Yes no doubt you have indeed helped me thru thick and thin, giving me advices, comfort me with you words of reassurance- that I am right when I AM RIGHT, and I can't possibly repay you. But that is not the thing now. The thing is that it is pretty obvious that you no longer wish to have me as a close friend, but you didn't have the f*uckin! guts to tell me in my FACE!!!

I treat you like a friend,
my best friend,
a sister. But I guess you will never know that.

"Still I wish that you and I'd
Forgive each other
'Cause I miss you, Valentine
And really loved you

I really loved you
I tried so hard
But you drove me away
To preserve my sanity
And I found the strength to break away
Fly..."

pain... chapter II

2007-04-29T01:15:00.000+08:00

I love you.
I myself borne witness to my love for you.
I don't care what you are wearing.

...or what you've bought me.

I just want you here.
Wanting me...

Time is running out. I won't love you unconditionally that much longer.
And soon...

I...

... won't...

... love...

... you...

... at all....

Pain

2007-04-28T18:13:00.000+08:00

"It takes your enemy and your friend, working together to hurt you to the heart;
the one to slander you and the other to get the news to you."

Mark Twain

Pink Martini - Let's Never Stop Falling in Love, Paris 2004

2007-04-27T09:28:00.000+08:00

LET'S NEVER STOP FALLING IN LOVE

I wish a falling star could fall forever
And sparkle through the clouds and stormy weather
And in the darkness of the night
The star would shine a glimmering light
And hover above our love

Please hold me close and whisper that you love me
And promise that your dreams are only of me
When you are near, everything’s clear
Earth is a beautiful heaven
Always I hope that we follow the star
And be forever floating above

I know a falling star can’t fall forever
But let’s never stop falling in love

*

When you are near, everything’s clear
Earth is a beautiful heaven
Always I hope that we shine like the star
And be forever floating above

I know a falling star can’t fall forever
But let’s never stop falling in love
No, let’s never stop falling in love.

Okay. I love both songs.

The Music Video Ku Impikan Bintang Sean Ghazi

2007-04-27T09:23:00.000+08:00

I love this song.

enuff said...

And here's the lyrics

Ku Impikan Bintang- SEAN GHAZI

Ku impikan bintang jatuh ke bumi
Menyinari awan yang berat hujan
Dalam kegelapan malam
Bintang membawa harapan
Sinaran cinta kita…

Belailah daku dalam dakapan mu

Semaikan ku dalam mimpi-mimpi mu
Bila berdua, indah segala
Se-akan kita di syurga
Ku berdoa agar cinta kita
Seperti bintang yang menyinar

Nyata bintang tak kan jatuh ke bumi

Namun kita ‘kan jatuh cinta

Bila berdua, indah segala

Se-akan kita di syurga
Ku berdoa agar cinta kita
Seperti bintang yang menyinar

Nyata bintang tak kan jatuh ke bumi

Namun kita ‘kan jatuh cinta…
Semestinya ‘kan jatuh cinta

My TARZAN and JANE adventure...

2007-04-26T15:21:00.000+08:00

CAUTIONS:

THIS POST CONTAINED ISSUES/ PHOTOS THAT MIGHT CAUSED EXCESSIVE DISTURBANCE TOWARDS ENVIRONMENTALIST AND GREENPEACE-ist. PEDOPHILES PLEASE EXIT.

VIEWER DISCRETION ADVISED

Last week after the constant threats from my parents to force me not to attend college on Saturday (yeap you read right!) I finally gave in and missed both Mr Adrianta's History Of Western Architecture and Building Technology (Sorry Mr Ann). The occasions?> To visit my dad in Kuala Krai, Kelantan. For your informations, my dad is involved in the timber logging industry. He received a logging project in Kelantan in 2004. The actual timber logging was very much on hiatus due to paperwork, unpredictable whether changes and other delays. But finally after a long wait, early this month my dad received the green light to start the logging activities... He left for Kelantan and we never seen for almost 3 weeks. So my dad finally decided to ask us all to drive down to Kelantan and see with our own eyes how the actual logging process is being carried out. All my sisters couldn't made it for this trip. Dolly is busy managing her cafe in KGNS, Donna is in Bintulu, and Dazie went for a camping trip organized by her school. So early Saturday morning, my grandmother, my mom, Uncle Frankie, Auntie Celine, Erika and me left home at 7am. Our first pit stop was (gasp.... it's nothing adventurous lol) Banana Leaf in Centrepoint for a hearty breakfast. I couldn't bring myself to those heavy nasi lemak so bought some pastries from Panadero. After breakfast, we are back on the real mission to go to Kuala Krai. I don't really know the route name, but we did passed by One Utama, the toll near Shahril's house, Batu Caves, Pahang(Genting Highlands, Bentong, Raub etc). And twas a really winding road. Not that Uncle Frankie bad driving helps. *rolled eyes...* Gosh it seriously amazed me that he could drive at 120kmph at those corners and when it's too hard to control the steering?

breaks...

lyk real...
B RrrrrrrEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKkkkkkkkkkkk.....

here's a pic of my"dead-bored" face

Thank God I opted to seat in the center seat in the Naza Ria. Poor Auntie Celine and Erika that seats at the back... Auntie Celine and Erika slept almost throughout the entire trip.
Here's Auntie Celine sleeping- she must be really tired... her mouth was opened REAL big... larikkkk

not enough? want more?

here's a vid of her...

Matilah makkkk...

Oh well, we finally arrived at Gua Musang at noon(I think that's the place name... which I am pretty sure I got it wrong lol) and decided to makan... the first stop was at this stalls and to our horror!!!! flies were literally eating the dishes... So we decided to find others more hygienic place and we found this restaurant called Maxi or sumthing la... *too hungry cannot think already* It's a halal chinese restaurant and our waitress is a young Indian lady that speaks Mandarin... And the food is nice and most importantly... IT'S CLEAN. Though I was really turned off at first when I first walked into this restaurant coz it smells like Dettol. ahaha... Oh well, better Dettol than stomach ache kan...

Here's some pics...

Mom, Erika, Celine, Frankie

Erika

Family Portrait.

We paid for the food and meet up with my dad in Bateau* (I sooo got the place's name wrong!) First sight of my dad's Prado and we are whisk to the logging area.

Arrived at the logging area at 1.30pm... Twas a hot day and I was sweating like shit. Well, let me let the pics do the talking.

here's a video

Initially we planned to go into the jungle and see the logging process, but it's getting dark and sign of rain in the evening, so we left for Kuala Krai and check in to a villa. Don't know the name but the place is really nice... it's so bizarre to have such place so close to the Kuala Krai town...
Wanna cam whore but phone battery habis... And didn't bring my charger. So practically phone-less for a day! Twas bad... Like losing a best friend or something... I so missed my music!

We had dinner at my dad's house. I wouldn't say it's the place I wanna stay at. It's basically like those terrace house in SS2- except shabbier... so....
We left at 12 am and get back to the villa and sleep.

DAY 2

Woke up at 7.30 and check out from the villa. We gathered at my dad's place and prepare some food for lunch. Then we drove back from Kuala Krai to Bateau... Batiu... or whatever la... In the same car with dad and mom. The rest follow Un. Frankie in the Naza... thank god... So we stop by at this Pejabat Perhilitan(hutan stuff ). Meet up with dad's friend and had breakfast at "Flies Stall" (oh no...!). They gotta discuss about building a bridge or sumthing.
Didn't dare to order anything. lol
So after dad habis discussion, I asked him to stop by at petrol station and I get a Squggles and Milo tin.
We arrived at That-Freaking-"B" watever-place-name (don't make me say it again) and we finally masuk hutan... And WHOA!
The ride is really scary... The road is bad and trucks loaded with logs coming in and out narrowly missing the jeep we r in. Trust me this trip made roller coaster looks like children's mary-go-round ride... Some slopes are practically 90 deg. Every time we passed dad's logging areas (some belong to others) we hand the workers drinks. And those of you who are curious... Nah, they look nothing like those movies hunkies loggers... lmao... but they are hardworking people making a decent living... So

YOU GO BOYS!

We did get out from the jeep on few occasions and cam- whore... here's some...

Then we had a picnic by a stream for our lunch... Best giler... Being soo close to nature... And so together-gether with family. Ahh... At times I do wished my tres Hermanas is here... aww...

Cam-whorer #1

Mom holding my plate, sexy dad lmao

falling angel...

Grams...

Then my dad decided to gather some rocks and form a bath-tub like area for Erika to have some fun... I wanted to tag along... but realising that I am after all... 19... I decided not to...
here's some of her fun moments... as captured by her dad...

We packed our stuff and get back to the logging area. It was quite late and we better get going... So we said bye to my dad and continue our journey back to KL...

I must admit that I've really learned so many things from this trip. But the most valuable thing of all that I've learned is that my dad really has worked his @@@ off to support the family. It's a dangerous job and he risked his life everyday to provide all the luxuries for us.

I've come to appreciate my dad's hard work more and my love towards him has indeed... deepen.

Love ya dad!

I've Been Tagged!

2007-04-26T14:54:00.000+08:00

I been seeing lots of the "You been tagged" tagging thingy lately... So to my horror as I scrolled thru Bak's page, I have realised that I've been TAGGED! There's two options:

1)Hit the "BACK" button and pretend I didn't notice. Then on the next outing when she ask whether I saw them, convincingly say no...

2)Answer the damn thing....

Since I am quite free... (I love Agong's installation day- cuti woo hoo!)
So here goes:

5 Reasons Why I Blog:

* I am living in an unknown college to my frens(by the way it's no longer alif- it's ALPHA INTERNATIONAL COLLEGE... will blog on this later) so this is a better way i guess to update my lovely-tots on my rather boring life...

*To prove to GOD, MY FAMILY, MY FRIENDS and MYSELF that I can published a post EVERYDAY.....

to which I completely fall face-first- FLAT on... tsk tsk

*To be able to share certain things that interest me with others without forcing them to like it too... Confused? Well ex, I like Mariah Carey, and I post her stuff here. So if you like it you can view it here, and vice versa. The rule of thumb, if you don't like it? Then don't.

*I know I am beginning to sound unsound... Oh well the fourth reason is I am creative person who love to show others my creations... very the tak malu prasan diri sendiri creative.... haha

... and Lastly

*I have a very bad short term memory span. I couldn't even remember whether I peed this morning... So this is a good way for me to keep a log on my life and perhaps looking back and remembering my own shares of regrets, fun and a whole lot of assignments that have been given to me- though I doubt that I will forgot the latter....

So there you go, the 5 reasons why I blog... Not tagging anyone... hah!

the INFJ me

2007-04-26T14:48:00.000+08:00

Your Personality is the Rarest (INFJ)

Your personality type is introspective, principled, self critical, and sensitive.

Only about 2% of all people have your personality - including 3% of all women and around 1% of all men.
You are Introverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Judging.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

Def Poetry Jam - Alicia Keys - POW

2007-04-20T21:58:00.001+08:00

P.O.W ~Alicia Keys

I'm a prisoner
Of words unsaid
Just lonely feelings
Locked away in my head
I trap myself further
Every time I stay quiet
I should start to speak
But I stop and stay silent
And now I've made
My own hard bed
Inside a prison of words unsaid
I am a P.O.W.
Not a prisoner of war
A prisoner of words
Like a soldier
I'm a fighter
Yet only a puppet
Mostly I only say
What you wanna hear
Could you take it if I came clear?
Or would you rather see me
Stoned on a drug of complacency and compromise
M.I.A.
I guess that's what I am
Scraping this cold earth
For a piece of myself
For peace in myself

It'd be easier if you put me in jail
If you locked me away
I'd have someone to blame
But these bars of steel are of my making
They surround my mind
And have me shaking
My hands are cuffed behind my back

I'm a prisoner of the worst kind, in fact
A prisoner of compromise
A prisoner of compassion
A prisoner of kindness
A prisoner of expectation
A prisoner of my youth
Run too fast to be old
I've forgotten what I was told
Ain't I a sight to behold?

A prisoner of age dying to be young
To my head is my hand with a gun
And it's cold and it's hard
Cause there's nowhere to run
When you've caged youself
By holding your tongue
I'm a prisoner
Of words unsaid
Just lonely feelings
Locked away in my head
It's like solitary confinement

Every time I stay quiet
I should start to speak
But I stop and stay silent
And now I've made
My own hard bed
Inside a prison of words unsaid

Sofisticat, Conqueror, High Time Roller, Undefined~ am I>?

2007-04-20T21:34:00.000+08:00

got this from Steffie's page... And I love it... Try it if you want too.

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Jordin Sparks; Jerry's & Roger's work; Climate Presentation

2007-04-08T00:42:00.000+08:00

Jordin Sparks- I Who Have Nothing(studio recorded version)
I, I who have nothing
I, I who have no one
Adore you and want you so
I'm just a no one, with nothing to give you but oh
I love you

You, you buy her diamonds
Bright, sparkling diamonds
But believe me, dear, when I say
That she can give you the world
But she'll never love you the way
I love you

You can take her any place she wants
To fancy clubs and restaurants
But I can only watch you with
My nose pressed up against the window pane

I, I who have nothing
I, I who have no one
Must watch you, go dancing by
Wrapped in the arms of somebody else
Darling it is I

Who loves you

"I (Who Have Nothing)" was first made popular by Ben E. King in 1963, and also recorded by Shirley Bassey (reached #6 in the U.K.) and Tom Jones (reached #14 in the U.S.). Love this song!

Twas basically a mad mad mad week. Ya ya, I basically screwed the whole I-WILL-PUBLISH-A-POST-PER-DAY pledge kan... But tight schedule+bad time management... err...

(SOMEBODY OUT THERE PLEASE GET ME A COPY OF "TIME MANAGEMENT 101" SELF-HELP BOOK !!!!)

Anyways, first up was Roger's assignments. Dah siap buat till photo stating and then...
pap!
rejected!
I thought last week he told us to HANTAM[hentam](his famous word). Just do freehand to give it a sketching technique... But then Monday turned out that everything has to be drawn with T square and set square, even curtains to be drawn with french curve! Only the final tracing is freehand. Maybe it's my fault coz was wayyy ahead of schedule and pandai pandai conclude him instructions (kantoi!). But can't help it... Others dah habis 3 coloring so I kinda get the envious-mad-rush-i-have-to-be-up-to-par-also thingy... Last last have to redo the tracing. Argh!

Then Jerry's work... We are given a task to do-

A complete makeover for a condo in Mont Kiara!

For a Malaysian Celebrity summore!!!!

Woo hoo!

No?

-.-!!

Chill guys, if you think it's for real "real".... well it's on papers only la.... Nevertheless, I'm so pump up will ideas...

So pumped up that I can't seem to start! *SLAP SLAP*

H
E
L
P
!

Kao meng aaaaa!!!
Tolong!!!
*dunno how to say help in Tamil*

Wat is wrong with me?!!!! I so need to start doing this project. I need to know what is his/her fav color, style dan concept and basically his/her daily routine. My own choice which is 30's Hollywood Glam. hmm... Colors? Red, black, white, and what's Hollywood without the BLING$$$

But on the bright side, my team team did quite well for our "How Climate Affect Architecture" presentation. Susah nak describe what we did for the presentation, so gotta wait for pics aite. Tonnes of praising though(kelihatan hidung penulis kembang kempis, kembang dan kembang dan terus meletup... :p)... hehe...

So overall it was a good response, although I gotten this remark from someone:

"D'eric, next time when you are presenting don't chew something in your mouth - very bad sight!"

WAH!!! SOOO PEDAS!

But thanks anyways Miss C (;p) for the criticism, really appreciate it. Now that you mentioned, I kinda realised that too. Won't repeat that again. All and all, it's really great to see the effort you put in to do the whole presentation is well worth. But I will never,

EVER

procrastinate in doing my work again...

I'll try not to procrastinate...

post script:
Nina Wang sudah mati... herm... Too much McD's perhaps...?

I Who Have Nothing - Jordin Sparks (Recorded Version)

2007-04-08T00:41:00.001+08:00

UPDATES~ *sorry took so long

2007-04-02T13:05:00.000+08:00

Been so ~~lazy~~ busy lately with college life that I hardly find time to blog. So let me start with Yumi's bday. Since we couldn't celebrate it on Yumi's bday itself as she was busy on Saturday, we had dinner instead on Sunday at a Chinese restaurant in Subang Jaya. At 7pm sharp, she arrived and off we go. There're also Jessie, Sushi, Tengkoo, Soo Har and Ah Tek in the car. Yumi wasnt sure how to go to Subang using NKVE toll so we use the further route. Since it's gonna take us quite some time, I took out my camera and wat else? Cam whore. hehe.
So here's some pics.

Aiyo, driver why so tension???

Soo Har, Tengkoo, Me.
ps- Soo Har, Botox gone wrong? lariiikk...

Wanna cam whore some more but cam battery left 2 bars only. So....
Anyways, we arrived at 8.30pm. Joining us are Yumi's parents, auntie and grandma.
We had Chinese rojak and boiled kerang (yum yum) for starter. Then off tomain course. We had veggies, fried squids, honey chicken and steam fish (even more yum yum). After that, it's time for a lil happy bday song and candle blowing. The gang bought a Secret Recipe's Mango Delight cake. Love it! Here's some pics.

The short-lived cake

Ah Tek and Yumi struggling to lit the candle.
Yumi: Aik yak- off the fan off the fan...
Ah Tek: Aik yak- off the fan off the fan...

After much persistences, we finally managed to lit the candles.

the happy Birthday Girl
Me: Yumi, you do realised the posing is a lil "kanak kanak Ribena" rite...
Yumi: I like
Me: Suka hati you lor~
ps- Note the kepoh chi at the neighboring table. lol

Yumi and mom. Err watsup with the pose. It could be:

1- Hula dancing(happy ma)
2- Mo lui?

Family potrait.

temptation for second helping.
:p

At 10, Yumi dad paid the bill(thx Uncle!) and they left. We linger a bit more, pack the leftover cake for Alan and the rest that couldn't make it for the dinner and left at 10.30. Yumi sending me but had a detour first to Tesco for some shopping. Bought a magazine, yogurt and ice cream. When we left Tesco, something hilarious happened. Soo Har was getting into the car and when she lay her arse on the seat...

"braakkkk"

She sat on the leftover cake.

Hell broke loose as we laugh our heart out! Help her to clean her icing-ed ass and gave her a tesco plastic bag for her to sit on. The cake? Oh well, we just fixed the severe dent (though it's beyond repair haha) on the Styrofoam and still hands it to the guys(ahhaha)... shh...

Arrived home at 11.30pm. Sleep.

Cinta Diujung Jalan [ExtravaganzABG]

2007-03-28T03:28:00.001+08:00

Agnes Monica

2007-03-28T02:50:00.000+08:00

Cinta Diujung Jalan

setiap tetes air mataku
telah kuberikan untuk kisahku
mengerti tapi tak dimengerti
cintaku tlah diujung jalan

setiap kata dari bibirku
kadang tak sama dalam hatiku
tersenyum dalam hati menangis
cintaku tlah diujung jalan

aku sangat mengenalmu
aku juga cintaimu..
tapi kau tak pernah ada pengertian
ku senang,ku sedih
kau tak mau tahu

aku sangat mengenalmu
dulu kau tak begitu
kau bintang di hatiku
jadilah yang kumau
ku senang,ku sedih
kau ada denganku

ku mengerti kau apa adanya
begitupun yang kumau darimu
kau tahu rasanya diabaikan
cintaku telah diujung jalan

HAPPY BURFDAY MARIAH!

2007-03-27T21:30:00.000+08:00

Mariah Carey (born March 27, 1970) is an American pop and R&B singer, songwriter, record producer, music video director and actress. She debuted in 1990 under the guidance of Columbia Records executive Tommy Mottola and became the first recording act to have its first five singles top the U.S. Billboard Hot 100 chart. Following her marriage to Mottola in 1993, a series of hit records established her position as Columbia's highest-selling act. According to Billboard magazine, she was the most successful artist of the 1990s in the United States.^[1]

Mariah Carey took much more control over her image and music following her separation from Mottola in 1997, and she introduced elements of hip hop into her album material. Her popularity was in decline when she left Columbia in 2001, and she was dropped by Virgin Records the following year after a highly publicized physical and emotional breakdown and the poor reception of Glitter, her film and soundtrack project. In 2002 Carey signed with Island Records, and after an unsuccessful period, she returned to the forefront of pop music in 2005.

In 2000 the World Music Awards named Carey the best-selling female artist of all time,^[2] and she has recorded the most U.S. number-one singles for a female solo artist (seventeen). In addition to her commercial accomplishments, she is well-known for her vocal range, power, melismatic style, and use of the whistle register. However, some critics have said that Carey's efforts to showcase her vocal talents have been at the expense of communicating true emotion through song.^[3]^[4]

Childhood and youth

Mariah Carey was born in Huntington, Long Island, New York. She is the third and youngest child of Patricia Hickey, a former opera singer and vocal coach of Irish American descent, and Alfred Roy Carey (formerly Nuñez), an 'aeronautical engineer^[5]. Her father was mixed race of African-American and Venezuelan parentage. This makes Carey a quadroon. Both of her parents were Roman Catholic.^[6] As a multiethnic family, the Careys endured racial slurs, hostility, and sometimes violence, causing the family to frequently relocate throughout the New York area. The strain on the family led to the divorce of Carey's parents when she was three years old.^[7]

Carey had little contact with her father, and her mother worked several jobs to support the family. Spending much of her time at home alone, Carey turned to music as an outlet. She began singing at around the age of three. Her mother Patricia was her vocal coach; Patricia began teaching her how to sing after Carey imitated her practising Verdi's opera Rigoletto in Italian.^[8]^[9] Carey performed for the first time in public during elementary school and was writing her own songs by junior high. Carey graduated from Harborfields High School in Greenlawn, New York although she was frequently absent because of her popularity as a demo singer for local recording studios. Her renown within the Long Island music scene gave her opportunities to work with musicians such as Gavin Christopher and Ben Margulies, with whom she co-wrote material for her demo tape. After moving to New York City, Carey worked numerous part-time jobs to pay the rent and completed five hundred hours of beauty school.^[10] Eventually, she became a backup singer for Puerto Rican freestyle singer Brenda K. Starr.

In 1988 Carey met Columbia Records executive Tommy Mottola at a party, where Starr gave him Carey's demo tape. Mottola played the tape while leaving the party and was very impressed with what he heard. He returned to find Carey, but she had left. Nevertheless, Mottola tracked her down and signed her to a recording contract. This Cinderella-like story became part of the standard publicity surrounding Carey's entrance into the industry.^[11]

1990–1992: Early commercial success

Carey co-wrote the tracks on her 1990 debut album, Mariah Carey, and she continued to co-write nearly all her material for the rest of her career. She expressed dissatisfaction with the contributions of producers such as Ric Wake and Rhett Lawrence, whom executives at Columbia had enlisted to help make the album commercially viable.^[12] With substantial promotion it ascended to number one on the U.S. Billboard 200 chart, where it remained for several weeks. It produced four number-one singles and made Carey a star in the United States, but its success elsewhere was limited. Critics rated the album highly, and Carey won Grammy Awards for Best New Artist and Best Female Pop Vocal Performance (for her debut single "Vision of Love").

Carey conceived Emotions, her second album, as a homage to Motown soul music (see Motown Sound), and she worked with Walter Afanasieff and the dance group C&C Music Factory on the record. It was released soon after her debut album in late 1991, but was neither critically nor commercially as successful; Rolling Stone described it as "more of the same, with less interesting material ... pop-psych love songs played with airless, intimidating expertise".^[13] The title track "Emotions" made Carey the only recording act to have their first five singles reach number-one on the U.S. Hot 100 chart, though the album's follow-up singles failed to match this feat. Carey had been lobbying to produce her own songs, and beginning with Emotions, she would co-produce most of her material. "I didn't want [Emotions] to be somebody else's vision of me," she said. "There's more of me on this album."^[14] She began writing and producing for other artists, such as Penny Ford and Daryl Hall, within the coming year.

Although she had occasionally performed live, stage fright had prevented Carey from embarking on any major tours. Her first widely seen concert appearance was on the television show MTV Unplugged in 1992, and she said she felt that her performance proved her vocal abilities were not, as some had previously speculated, simulated using studio techniques.^[15] In addition to acoustic versions of some of her earlier songs, Carey premiered a cover of The Jackson 5's "I'll Be There" with back-up singer Trey Lorenz. Released as a single, the duet reached number one in the U.S. and led to a record deal for Lorenz, whose debut album Carey co-produced. Because of strong ratings for the Unplugged television special, the concert's set list was released on the EP MTV Unplugged, which Entertainment Weekly called "the strongest, most genuinely musical record she has ever made ... Did this live performance help her take her first steps toward growing up?"^[16]

1993–1996: Worldwide popularity

Carey and Tommy Mottola had become romantically involved during the making of her debut album, and in June 1993 they were married.

Kenneth "Babyface" Edmonds consulted on the album Music Box, which was released later that year and became Carey's most successful worldwide. It yielded her first UK Singles Chart number-one, a cover of Badfinger's "Without You", as well as the U.S. number-ones "Dreamlover" and "Hero". Billboard magazine proclaimed it as "heart-piercing ... easily the most elemental of Carey's releases, her vocal eurythmics in natural sync with the songs",^[17] but TIME magazine lamented Carey's attempt at a mellower work: "[Music Box] seems perfunctory and almost passionless ... Carey could be a pop-soul great; instead she has once again settled for Salieri-like mediocrity".^[18] When most critics slated her subsequent U.S. Music Box Tour, Carey said, "As soon as you have a big success, a lot of people don't like that. There's nothing I can do about it. All I can do is make music I believe in."^[19]

After a successful duet with Luther Vandross on a cover of Lionel Richie and Diana Ross' "Endless Love" in late 1994, Carey released the holiday album Merry Christmas. It contained cover material and original compositions such as "All I Want for Christmas Is You", which became Carey's biggest single in Japan and in subsequent years emerged as one of her most perennially popular songs on North American radio.^[20]^[21] Critical reception of Merry Christmas was mixed, with All Music Guide calling it an "otherwise vanilla set ... pretensions to high opera on 'O Holy Night' and a horrid danceclub [sic] take on 'Joy to the World'".^[22] It became the most successful Christmas album of all time.^[23]

In 1995 Columbia released Carey's next album, Daydream, which combined the pop sensibilities of Music Box with downbeat R&B and hip hop influences. A remix of "Fantasy", its first single, featured the late rapper Ol' Dirty Bastard. Carey said that Columbia reacted negatively to her intentions for the album: "Everybody was like 'What, are you crazy?'. They're very nervous about breaking the formula."^[24] It became her biggest-selling album in the U.S. and its singles achieved similar success: "Fantasy" became the second single to debut at number-one in the U.S. and topped the Canadian Singles Chart for twelve weeks, "One Sweet Day" (a duet with Boyz II Men) spent a still-record sixteen weeks at number one in the U.S., and "Always Be My Baby" (co-produced by Jermaine Dupri) led the Hot 100's 1996 year-end airplay chart. Daydream generated career-best reviews for Carey^[25] and publications such as The New York Times named it one of 1995's best albums; the Times wrote that its "best cuts bring pop candy-making to a new peak of textural refinement ... Carey's songwriting has taken a leap forward, becoming more relaxed, sexier and less reliant on thudding clichés".^[26] The short but profitable Daydream World Tour augmented sales of the album, which received six Grammy Award nominations.

1997–2000: New image and independence

Carey and Mottola separated in 1996. Although the public image of the marriage was a happy one, she said that in reality she had felt trapped by her relationship with Mottola, whom she often described as controlling.^[27] They officially announced their separation in 1997, and their divorce became final the following year. Carey hired a new attorney and manager soon after the separation, as well as an independent publicist. She became a major songwriter and producer for other artists during this period, contributing to the debut albums of Allure and 7 Mile through her short-lived Crave Records imprint.

Carey's next album, Butterfly (1997), yielded the number-one single "Honey", the lyrics and music video for which presented a more overtly sexual image of her than had been previously seen.^[28] She stated that Butterfly marked the point that she attained full creative control over her music, which continued to move in an R&B/hip hop direction with material co-written and co-produced by rappers such as Sean "P. Diddy" Combs and Missy Elliott, but added: "I don't think it's that much of a departure from what I've done in the past ... It's not like I went psycho and thought I was going to be a rapper. Personally, this album is about doing whatever the hell I wanted to do."^[29] Reviews were generally positive: LAUNCHcast said Butterfly "pushes the envelope", a move its critic thought "may prove disconcerting to more conservative fans" but praised as "a welcome change".^[30] The Los Angeles Times wrote: "[Butterfly] is easily the most personal, confessional-sounding record she's ever done ... Carey-bashing just might become a thing of the past."^[31] The album was a commercial success, and "My All" (her thirteenth Hot 100 number-one) gave her the record for the most U.S. number-ones by a female artist. Towards the turn of the millennium, Carey was developing the film project Glitter, and she wrote songs for the films Men in Black (1997) and How the Grinch Stole Christmas! (2000).

During the production of Butterfly, Carey became romantically involved with New York Yankees baseball player Derek Jeter. Their relationship ended in 1998, with both parties citing media interference as the main reason for the split.^[32] That year saw the release of #1's, a collection of her U.S. number-one singles up to that point. Carey said she recorded new material for the album as a way of rewarding her fans,^[33] and included "When You Believe", an Academy Award-winning duet with Whitney Houston from the soundtrack to The Prince of Egypt (1998). #1's sold above expectations, but a review in NME labeled Carey "a purveyor of saccharine bilge like 'Hero', whose message seems wholesome enough: that if you vacate your mind of all intelligent thought, flutter your eyelashes and wish hard, sweet babies and honey will follow".^[34] Also that year she appeared on the first televised VH1 Divas benefit concert program, though her alleged prima donna behavior had already led many to consider her a diva.^[35] By the following year, she had entered a relationship with singer Luis Miguel.

Rainbow, Carey's sixth studio album, was released in 1999. It comprised more R&B/hip hop-oriented songs, many of them co-created with Jimmy Jam and Terry Lewis. "Heartbreaker" and "Thank God I Found You" (the former featuring Jay-Z, the latter featuring Joe and boy-band 98 Degrees) reached number one in the U.S., and the success of the former made Carey the only act to have a number-one single in each year of the 1990s. A cover of Phil Collins's "Against All Odds (Take a Look at Me Now)" went to number one in the UK after Carey re-recorded it with boy band Westlife. Media reception of Rainbow was generally enthusiastic, with the Sunday Herald saying the album "sees her impressively tottering between soul ballads and collaborations with R&B heavyweights like Snoop Doggy Dogg, Usher ... It's a polished collection of pop-soul."^[36] VIBE magazine expressed similar sentiments, writing, "She pulls out all stops...Rainbow will garner even more adoration",^[37] but despite this it became Carey's lowest-selling album up to that point, and there was a recurring criticism that the tracks were too alike. When the double A-side "Crybaby"/"Can't Take That Away (Mariah's Theme)" became her first single to peak outside the top twenty, Carey accused Sony of under promoting it: "The political situation in my professional career is not positive ... I'm getting a lot of negative feedback from certain corporate people", she wrote on her official website.^[38]

2001–2004: Personal and professional struggles

After receiving Billboard's "Artist of the Decade" Award and the World Music Award for "Best-Selling Female Artist of the Millennium",^[2] Carey parted from Columbia and signed a contract with EMI's Virgin Records worth a reported US$80 million. She often stated that Columbia had regarded her as a commodity, with her separation from Mottola exacerbating her relations with label executives. Just a few months later, in July 2001, it was widely reported that Carey had suffered a physical and emotional breakdown. She had left messages on her website complaining of being overworked,^[39] and her relationship with Luis Miguel was ending. In an interview the following year, she said, "I was with people who didn't really know me, and I had no personal assistant. I'd be doing interviews all day long, getting two hours of sleep a night, if that."^[40] During an appearance on MTV's Total Request Live, Carey handed out popsicles to the audience and began what was later described as a "strip tease",^[41] removing a large, baggy t-shirt to reveal a halter top and Daisy Dukes. By the month's end, she had checked into a hospital, and her publicist announced that she would be taking a break from public appearances.^[42]

Critics panned Glitter, Carey's much delayed semi-autobiographical film, and it was a box office failure. The album Glitter, inspired by the music of the 1980s, generated her worst showing on the U.S. chart. The St. Louis Post-Dispatch dismissed it as "an absolute mess that'll go down as an annoying blemish on a career that, while not always critically heralded, was at least nearly consistently successful",^[43] while Blender magazine opined, "After years of trading her signature flourishes for a radio-ready purr, [Carey]'s left with almost no presence at all."^[44] "Loverboy" reached number two on the Hot 100 thanks to a price cut,^[42] but the album's follow-up singles failed to chart.

Columbia released the low-charting album Greatest Hits shortly after the failure of Glitter, and in early 2002 Virgin bought out Carey's contract for $28 million, creating further negative publicity. Carey said her time at Virgin had been "a complete and total stress-fest ... I made a total snap decision which was based on money, and I never make decisions based on money. I learned a big lesson from that."^[45] Later that year, she signed a $20 million contract with Island Records and launched the record label MonarC. To add further to Carey's emotional burdens, her father, with whom she had had little contact since childhood, died of cancer that year.

Following a well-received supporting role in the 2002 film WiseGirls, Carey released the album Charmbracelet, which she said marked "a new lease on life" for her.^[40] Sales of Charmbracelet were moderate, and the quality of Carey's vocals came under severe criticism. The Boston Globe declared the album as "the worst of her career, revealing a voice no longer capable of either gravity-defying gymnastics or soft coos",^[46] and Rolling Stone commented: "Carey needs bold songs that help her use the power and range for which she is famous. Charmbracelet is like a stream of watercolors that bleed into a puddle of brown."^[47] Singles such as "Through the Rain" failed on the charts and with pop radio, whose playlists had become less open to maturing "diva" stylists such as Carey, Whitney Houston and Celine Dion.^[40]

"I Know What You Want", a 2003 Busta Rhymes single on which Carey guest-starred, fared considerably better and reached the top five in the U.S. Columbia later included it on the remix collection The Remixes, Carey's lowest-selling album. That year, she embarked on the Charmbracelet World Tour and was awarded the World Music Chopard Diamond Award for selling over 100 million albums worldwide.^[48] She was featured on rapper Jadakiss' 2004 single "U Make Me Wanna", which reached the top ten on Billboard's R&B/Hip-Hop chart.

2005–present: Return to prominence

Carey's ninth studio album, The Emancipation of Mimi, was released in 2005 and contained contributions from producers such as The Neptunes, Kanye West and Carey's longtime collaborator, Jermaine Dupri. Carey said it was "very much like a party record ... the process of putting on makeup and getting ready to go out ... I wanted to make a record that was reflective of that."^[49] The Emancipation of Mimi became the year's best-selling album in the U.S., won a Grammy Award for Best Contemporary R&B Album and received some of Carey's most favorable reviews in some time; The Guardian defined it as "cool, focused and urban ... [some of] the first Mariah Carey tunes in years I wouldn't have to be paid to listen to again".^[50] The second single, "We Belong Together", held the Hot 100's number-one position for fourteen weeks (her longest run at the top as a solo lead artist) and was the biggest hit of 2005 in the U.S., while "Shake It Off" made Carey the only female artist to occupy the Hot 100's top two positions simultaneously.^[51] "Don't Forget About Us" became her seventeenth number-one in the U.S., tying her with Elvis Presley for the most number-ones by a solo act according to Billboard magazine's revised methodology (their statistician Joel Whitburn still credits Presley with an eighteenth^[52]). (The Beatles have twenty.) Carey has also had success on international charts, though not to the same degree as her native America. She has had two number-one singles in Britain, two in Australia, and six in Canada. Carey's highest-charting single in Japan peaked at number-two.^[53]^[54]^[55]^[56]

Carey began a concert tour, The Adventures of Mimi Tour, in mid-2006. She appeared on the cover of the March 2007 edition of Playboy magazine on a non-nude photo session.^[57] In 2007 Carey will receive a "recording star" on the Hollywood Walk of Fame^[58] and be inducted into the Long Island Music Hall of Fame.

According to an interview with Entertainment Tonight, she had already begun to work on her next studio album, which is expected for release sometime during early 2007, in mid-2006.^[59] According to a November 2006 Reuters report, Universal Music Group CEO Doug Morris has stated that Carey will release two albums in 2007.^[60]

Acting career

Carey began to take professional acting lessons in 1997, and within the coming year, she was auditioning for film roles. She made her debut as an opera singer in the romantic comedy The Bachelor (1999) starring Chris O'Donnell and Renée Zellweger, and CNN derisively referred to her casting as a talentless diva as "letter-perfect ... the "can't act" part informs Carey's entire performance".^[61]

Carey's first starring role was in Glitter (2001), in which she played a struggling musician in the 1980s who breaks into the music industry after meeting a disc jockey (Max Beesley). While Roger Ebert said "[Carey]'s acting ranges from dutiful flirtatiousness to intense sincerity",^[62] most critics panned it: Halliwell's Film Guide called it a "vapid star vehicle for a pop singer with no visible acting ability",^[63] and The Village Voice observed: "When [Carey] tries for an emotion—any emotion—she looks as if she's lost her car keys."^[64] Glitter was a box office failure, and Carey earned a Razzie Award for her role. She later said that the film "started out as a concept with substance, but it ended up being geared to 10-year-olds. It lost a lot of grit ... I kind of got in over my head."^[40] The film has consistently been ranked as one of the worst of all time in user voting at the Internet Movie Database.^[65]

Carey, Mira Sorvino and Melora Walters co-starred as waitresses at a mobster-operated restaurant in the independent film WiseGirls (2002), which premiered at the Sundance Film Festival but went straight to cable in the U.S. Critics commended Carey for her efforts: The Hollywood Reporter predicted, "Those scathing notices for Glitter will be a forgotten memory for the singer once people warm up to Raychel",^[66] and Roger Friedman, referring to her as "a Thelma Ritter for the new millennium", said, "Her line delivery is sharp and she manages to get the right laughs".^[67] WiseGirls producer Anthony Esposito cast Carey in The Sweet Science, a film about an unknown female boxer who is recruited by a boxing manager, but it never entered production.^[68]

Carey was one of several musicians who appeared in the independently produced Damon Dash films Death of a Dynasty (2003) and State Property 2 (2005), while her television work has been limited to a January 2002 episode of Ally McBeal.

In 2006 Carey joined the cast of the indie film Tennessee (2007), taking the role of a waitress who travels with her two brothers to find their long-lost father.^[69]

Artistry

Carey has said that from childhood she was stimulated by R&B and soul musicians such as Billie Holiday, Sarah Vaughan, Gladys Knight, Aretha Franklin, Al Green and Stevie Wonder. Her music contains strong influences of gospel music, and her favorite gospel singers include The Clark Sisters, Shirley Caesar and Edwin Hawkins.^[70] As Carey began to imbue her sound with hip hop, speculation arose that she was making an attempt to take advantage of the genre's popularity, but she told Newsweek, "People just don't understand. I grew up with this music".^[71] She has expressed appreciation for rappers such as The Sugarhill Gang, Eric B. & Rakim, the Wu-Tang Clan, The Notorious B.I.G. and Mobb Deep, with whom she collaborated on "The Roof (Back in Time)" (1997).^[11]

Carey's debut album received criticism for being too similar in style to the work of Whitney Houston, and throughout her career, her vocal and musical style, along with her level of success, has been compared to Houston and Céline Dion. Carey and her peers, according to Garry Mulholland, are "the princesses of wails ... virtuoso vocalists who blend chart-oriented pop with mature MOR torch song".^[72] In She Bop II: The Definitive History of Women in Rock, Pop and Soul (2002) writer Lucy O'Brien attributed the comeback of Barbra Streisand's "old-fashioned showgirl" to Carey and Dion, and described them and Houston as "groomed, airbrushed and overblown to perfection".^[73] Carey's musical transition and her use of more revealing clothing during the late 1990s were in part initiated to distance herself from this image, and she subsequently said that most of her early work had been "schmaltzy MOR". Some have noted that unlike Houston and Dion, Carey co-writes all of her own songs, and the Guinness Rockopedia (1998) classified her as the "songbird supreme".^[74]

Voice

Carey is said to be able to cover all the notes from the alto vocal range leading to those of a coloratura soprano,^[3]^[75] and her vocal trademark is her ability to sing in the whistle register. She has cited Minnie Riperton as the greatest influence on her singing technique, and from a very early age she attempted to emulate Riperton's high notes, to increasing degrees of success as her vocal range expanded. According to most sources, she has a five-octave vocal range, though some credit her with seven or eight octaves.^[73]^[76] In 2003 her voice was voted the greatest in music in MTV and Blender magazine's countdown of the 22 Greatest Voices in Music. Carey said of the poll, "What it really means is voice of the MTV generation. Of course, it's an enormous compliment, but I don't feel that way about myself."^[77]

Carey's voice has come under considerable scrutiny from critics who believe that she does not effectively communicate the message of her songs. Rolling Stone magazine said in 1992, "Carey has a remarkable vocal gift, but to date, unfortunately, her singing has been far more impressive than expressive ... at full speed her range is so superhuman that each excessive note erodes the believability of the lyric she is singing."^[4] The New York Daily News wrote that Carey's singing "is ultimately what does her in. For Carey, vocalizing is all about the performance, not the emotions that inspired it ... Does having a great voice automatically make you a great singer? Hardly."^[3] Some interpreted Carey's decision to utilise what she described as "breathy" vocals in some of her late 1990s and early 2000s work as a sign that her voice had begun to deteriorate, but she has maintained that it "has been here all along".^[78] An article in Vibe magazine indicated that Carey's singing style highlights weaknesses in other aspects of her music: "The impressiveness of her voice—as well as her tendency to oversing—make the blandness of her material all the more flagrant".^[11]

Themes and musical style

Love is the subject of the majority of Carey's lyrics, although she has also written about themes such as racism, death, world hunger, and spirituality. She has said that much of her work is partly autobiographical, but TIME magazine wrote: "If only Mariah Carey's music had the drama of her life. Her songs are often sugary and artificial—NutraSweet soul. But her life has passion and conflict."^[79]

Carey's output makes great use of electronic instruments such as drum machines, keyboards and synthesizers. Many of her songs contain piano music, and she was given piano lessons when she was six years old. Carey said that she cannot read sheet music and prefers to collaborate with a pianist when composing her material, but feels that it is easier to experiment with faster and less conventional melodies and chord progressions using this technique. Some of her arrangements have been inspired by the work of musicians such as Stevie Wonder, a soul pianist whom Carey once referred to as "the genius of the [20th] century",^[11] but she has said, "My voice is my instrument; it always has been."^[80]

Carey began commissioning remixes of her material early in her career and helped spearhead the practice of recording entirely new vocals for remixes. Disc jockey David Morales has collaborated with Carey several times, starting with "Dreamlover" (1993), which popularized the tradition of remixing pop songs into house records and which Slant magazine named one of the greatest dance songs of all time.^[81] From "Fantasy" (1995) onward, she enlisted both hip hop and house producers to re-imagine her album compositions. Entertainment Weekly included two remixes of "Fantasy" on a list of Carey's greatest recordings compiled in 2005:^[82] a National Dance Music Award-winning remix produced by Morales, and a Sean Combs production featuring rapper Ol' Dirty Bastard. The latter has been credited with initiating the pop/hip hop collaboration trend that has continued into the 2000s through artists such as Ashanti and Beyoncé Knowles.^[83] Combs said that Carey "knows the importance of mixes, so you feel like you're with an artist who appreciates your work—an artist who wants to come up with something with you".^[11] She continues to consult on remixes by producers such as Morales, Jermaine Dupri, Junior Vasquez and DJ Clue, and guest performers contribute frequently to them. The popularity in U.S. nightclubs of the dance remixes, which often sound radically different from their album counterparts, has been known to eclipse the chart success of the original songs.

Philanthropy and other activities

Carey is a philanthropist who has donated time and money to organizations such as the Fresh Air Fund. She became associated with the Fund in the early 1990s, and is the co-founder of a camp located in Fishkill, New York that enables inner-city youth to embrace the arts and introduces them to career opportunities. The camp was called Camp Mariah "for her generous support and dedication to Fresh Air children",^[84] and she received a Congressional Horizon Award for her youth-related charity work. She is well-known nationally for her work with the Make-A-Wish Foundation in granting the wishes of children with life-threatening illnesses, and in November 2006 she was awarded the Foundation's Wish Idol for her "extraordinary generosity and her many wish granting achievements".^[85] Carey has volunteered for the New York City Police Athletic League and contributed to the obstetrics department of New York Presbyterian Hospital Cornell Medical Center. A percentage of the sales of MTV Unplugged was donated to various other charities. In January 2007 it was reported Carey had volunteered to teach music production at a school Oprah Winfrey opened in South Africa.^[86]

One of Carey's most high-profile benefit concert appearances was on VH1's 1998 Divas Live special, where she performed alongside other female singers in support of the Save the Music Foundation. The concert was a ratings success, and Carey participated in the 2000 special. She appeared at the America: A Tribute to Heroes nationally televised fundraiser in the aftermath of the September 11, 2001 attacks, and in December 2001 she performed before peacekeeping troops in Kosovo. Carey hosted the CBS television special At Home for the Holidays, which documented real-life stories of adopted children and foster families, and she has worked with the New York City Administration for Children's Services. In 2005 Carey performed for Live 8 in London and at the Hurricane Katrina relief telethon Shelter from the Storm.

Carey has participated in endorsements for Intel Centrino personal computers.^[87] In early 2006 she launched a jewelry and accessories line for teenagers, "Glamorized", in American Claire's and Icing stores.^[69] Later that year it was announced she had signed a licensing deal with the cosmetics company Elizabeth Arden to release a fragrance in 2007.^[88] During this period, as part of a partnership with Pepsi and Motorola, Carey recorded and promoted a series of exclusive ringtones such as "Time of Your Life".^[89] According to Forbes, Carey is the sixth richest woman in entertainment, with an estimated net worth of US$225 million .^[90]

Source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mariah_Carey

PS- Wanna see Mariah's infamous crib in Manhattan? Click here

The reclused boy

2007-03-25T01:18:00.000+08:00

I always wonder how will does it feel to be in the shoes of an outcast. Sometimes I really pity this guy in my class who is despised and not wanted by everybody, including me. I might sound harsh but there is explanations to everything. The thing is he is rude, creepy and selfish. When I just started studying in Alif, around August last year, I was very nice to everybody.

Including him.

But things took turn one day. He sat behind me and offer me file rings (those you use to keep your papers together). "Deric I got extra rings you want onot?" Apparently he bought extra and doesn't need them. Since I haven't got those for Roger's class I ambik la. I said thank you and I turn back and start doing my work.

Then he tap my chair.

Hmm... So I turned back around and guess what, he utter these words to me in a very sarcastic-matter-or-fact tone, "I don't give them for free you know, I charge you wan... 50 cents each." My jaw dropped and I kinda felt like the it's the end of the world. I mean, YOU OFFERED ME those rings and now you're charging me??? What the f*uck?!

Don't get me wrong ppl, I don't care how much you wanna charge me for those god damn rings- charge me 5 bucks a ring and I'll pay for it- but DON'T ever offer me something and ask me to pay for it after I keep it. In fact never offer anyone anything and ask them to pay for it after they keep it. You ask them politely if they wanna BUY something that tell them you plan to SELL before you hand them over, not after. Plus it's a new environment and you don't have many friends, so why not just give it to people instead of selling them? I mean you give away something so small but you get a friend for life in return. No?

So basically that's one of the many reasons I don't really like him. Other issues including noise related probs (Jay Chou songs; William Hung's angelic voice *shivers); how he communicates and just the vibes that he radiates.

So soon I started to realized that it wasn't just me who shun him, others too.

To you- you know who you are- if ya reading this, I hope you can start to examine the man in the mirror. Take notes of this and it will help you in the future. You need friends. And you want friends. You just don't know how.

HAPPY BDAY YUMI

2007-03-25T01:14:00.000+08:00

Yumi officially turned 21 24 hrs ago.

Happy Birthday babe! Glad to have you as a friend.
Hope to see ya soon.

ps- Y la u didn't come today? hmph! >.<

I broke my resolution

2007-03-25T01:08:00.000+08:00

I told myself to blog everyday.

i failed...

F*uck.

First Day In College

2007-03-19T12:42:00.000+08:00

Back to college today. Today marked the first day of third semester of Year 1.

I was late.
On purpose though. Hehe...
Well you see since I'm officially a senior in Alif College, you kinda reaslised certain routines doesn't really change.

One of them is it doesn't really matter what time you come to college on the first day- as long as come. Yeap, previous sem didn't know this and obligingly came at 9 am- sharp. And guess what, was the earliest one! !@#$%

learned my lesson well.

So this sem I kinda left the house at 9.15am. ahaha... Yeap, and I was right. Don't have to come sooo early. Though I get tonnes of staring. Probably because of my new hair. Or maybe I'd overdressed. Lmao. Yeap.... Today outfit was kinda inspired by Topman/FCUK. I wore this strip collar long sleeve over a Quicksilver jacket. White shorts for Mark&Spencer, a red converse shoes and complete with a tie. Yeap- a tie. So, yeah, u get the picture. Preppy/Funkay(emm.. I LIKE!!!) haha.

So basically now in PC Lab and blogging. There's a class at 2pm later with Roger. Visual Comm II. Till *faint* SIX!
SIX
SIX
SIX
SEX!!!!

I AM SO VERY BORED. Gonna check out Mr Manager blog though. And yeah, maybe gonna blog somemore later. I need to go around and someone to stab.... hehe
Till then... CIAO!

Meet My New Black

2007-03-18T20:13:00.000+08:00

I woke up this morning.

After 4 weeks with my Ah-Jeng-slash-Pasar-Malam-Hair-color, I have finally decided to color my hair. This time it's back to black. :)

Black-ish.

Ok, it's Black Blue. Hawt rite? ahaha

To tell the truth... I kinda like the idea of having a black hair with a tint of blue in it. But then... when i googled "blue hair"- the hairs are all, well... take a look.

HORROR...

GAH!!!!!

SHRIEK!!!

So kinda had a second thought on coloring my hair. I mean that there's possibilities that my hair might turned out like that! But then again, I've already bought the hair dye and yeah, why not give it a shot rite...

So I did.

This is what I bought with Gladys yesterday. Rest assure that unless you are physically handicapped, DIY hair coloring at home is so easy and safe- plus it's so much more fun than having it done saloon! and did I mentioned that it's cheaper? hehe

I am actually a big fan of Loreal 3D coz the end look are usually more natural, but they are available only in earth tones. So that left me with Wella or Garnier. Since Wella is more expensive than Garnier(by 10 freaking bucks can u believe it?! rip off betul!) I've decided that I'll give it a shot on Garnier.

Hmm... And all these are included inside.

Click on image for clearer pic

So basically these are the few tips that need to be observed before you start coloring your lock.

#1- Read the label(very important)

#2- Wear those gloves, unless u want to have an iodine colored nails. Very unattractive. Trust me- yours truly experience.

#3- Unless you dad own Gucci/Prada/Hermes, do use old/inexpensive shirts and if you must, cover ur shoulders with garbage bag/towel/newspapers.

So thats about it la. Just remember to be extra careful and DON'T color your eyebrows at home NO MATTER how tempting it is (leave them to the pros) unless you wanna risk yourself getting blind. (no joke)

Hmm, with that and a brave heart, I started my transformation from Ah-Jeng- to becoming the Guy-Next-Door(?).

Erm I did took tonnes of pics of me during the process, but then lets just say it's not really a pretty sight and the color is rather alien-ish- so...

It's easier to apply but gotta leave it for 40 mins to really let the color penetrate into the hair fibre.(the leaflets says 25-35 min max but just wanna be safe)

While waiting, I made Dazie order 20 pieces of Mc Nuggets, 1 large F&N Orange and 1 large fries... All for me.

And then I wait.

and wait. Finally McD arrived and it's also time for me to wash my hair. The washing process was longer than I've anticipated. But the end result was worth it. It's nothing like the pics that I saw on9. It's so nice coz it's actually more to black and best thing is my parents won't even noticed it's blue... unless I stand in the sun of coz.

Changed and wanna saviour my McD. Was really pissed that I ordered 20 pieces of nuggets and they FORGOT to give me my BBQ sauce. WTF? So I called them and demand my BBQ sauce to be delivered.

While waiting, I decided to cam whore. So here goes-

Then someone interrupted my cam whore session.

Me: Yes?
Miss K: Take photo.
Me: No.
Miss K: Please please...
Me: Hmm... Ok then. Hmm, Posing with those???
Miss K: HEHE...
Me: Vain.

Then...

Miss K's Mom: Kaka! Jalan...

...Model lari tinggalkan set...

Was just about to change into other clothes but McD's here and I am starving.
Then pretty much occupy my the rest of the time to sleep and on9. Cam whore? Some other time.

Anyways, can't wait for college tomorrow. First day of Sem3. Shhh- I didn't anyone from college. Till then.

OU outing, AFNTM and B*itch Straightening #101

2007-03-18T00:48:00.000+08:00

OU OUTING
8:30am
Mom called to tell me that Dolly is coming home at 9am to pick up 5 packets of Vermicelli noodles. She needs it. Braaaarrrghh!!!! It's 8:30am for goodness sake! With my half open eyes I brave the journey to go down to the kitchen and packed the noodles.

Then, tunggu.

Fyi, Dolly is my eldest sis and she is a professional chef. She graduated from KDU School of Culinary Art. Dolly recently opened a stall offering Mexican, English and Sarawakian food in KGNS. So she needs the vermicelli to do Laksa Sarawak. And mind you, Dolly make the best Laksa Sarawak. So if you or your family members are a KGNS member, feel free to drop by her stall and grab some fajitas or Laksa Sarawak or even Shepherd Pie. Sedaaaap.

9.15
Still waiting. Where is she?!!!

9.30
Open door. Unlock front door grill. Place vermicelli at a corner next to the grill. Lock the door grill. Close main door. Ran up and sleeeeeeeep.

11.00
Bangun, shower and get ready. Lunch with Gladys, Xu and Grace. Meet up in OU and then go Hartamas. Gla text that plan to go Hartamas dah cancel so gotta settle for OU instead. Arrived at Old Wing at 12.15. So walk all the way to New Wing. Xu was there first. Then Gla and then Grace. Couldn't decide where to makan. Akhirnya go Jack's Place coz wanna try the food. Ordered NZ Sirloin Steak with Rosemary sauce and a Shirley Temple.
Hmm, the food's fine and the drink's great too. We eat and we bitch. Ahaha.
Finally after what seems to be a very2 long and meaningful conversation we paid for the food and left. When to MPH and browse thru magazines.

more bitching.

:)

Grace bought 2 mags. Xu and Grace left at 4. Xu got work and Grace's heading home. Teman Gla go Vault to checkout some accs. Help her choose some and ends up buying for my sis too. Then off to Watson to get some beauty product. Bought Sebamed Cleanser, body scrub and hair wax conditioner. Also bought a hair dye. Finally to let go of my Ah-Jeng-Pasar-Malam-VCD-peddler hair color and dyeing my hair back to black.

Erm... black-ish.

Black with a slight tint of dark blue. Will post more later on this.

Gla dad arrived to pick her up. I pulak home by cab.

Arrived home and vemicelli still at the door. Dazie was sooo happy with the earrings I've got her. Cam whoring soon. Fyi, Dazie is my youngest sis and she loves gifts. err...

Herm... I bath and planned to color my hair but pretty much laziness got the better of me and i ended up curling in my comfy bed instead. Dazie pulak so drawn by this radiation emitting screen and couldnt stop myspacing/mp3 downloading pc-hp/friendster-ing. We ordered McD delivery and i had my dinner in bed. Food was gr8! Ahaha... We bitch and we karaoke to all of the ktv that we downloaded from Limewire. Then at 8.30 I glued my ass in front of the idiot box. If you still doesn't have a clue... it's AKADEMI FANTASIA5 #1 performance show.

Akademi Fantasia Next Top Model (AFNTM)

Debaran AF semakin memuncak. Tepat pada pukul 8.30 persembahan AF5 ke udara buat kali pertamanya.

I expected a BOMB!

Meletup letup!

Instead all I got is my nenek kentut. Even my nenek kentut was "bomb-ier" than last night show.

Bukan nak mencaci dan menghina. Tetapi semalam banyak sangat masalah yang tidak sepatutnya berlaku. If twas the AF first season then memang boleh dimaafkan. But dek oi dah masuk Musim keLIMA. Mana nak letak muka ni. The show started with Aznil ~~introducing the AF Finalist~~ giving thanks to all the sponsors. Hmm.. then baru kesemua finalist AF5 diperkenalkan. Well, here's when all the problems started.

The indroduction thingy was wayyyy too-over-the-top-sugary. Saya faham that busana diaorang direka oleh our local designers and this is like a platform to introduce them too... Tapi takyah la ber-catwalk sakan kat atas pentas tu. I swear if i happened to walk into the room not watch it from the start, I would have thought it's Project Runway ala Malaysia/ AFNTM. Loose the drama Astro and get going with "memcari Juara AF5".

Then when the singing finally get started, imagine my disappointment.
One word- HAMBAR.
I am sorry guys. Though I know it took a lot of guts to perform in public (some of you are only my age and some is even younger) but last night was just like a leftover lukewarm coffee from yesterday's breakfast.

hmm... make it cold.

Banyak kelemahan vokal yang mungkin disebabkan oleh gemuruh(mesti dikawal), tak ada experience or plain bad. I mean Astro u guys dah buat audition berminggu minggu and this is all you've got? Come on.

Other major problem is the systems. First of all, the sound system. I.T. I.S. T.O.O. S.O.F.T.! You GOTTA ampliefiedkan lagi the mic for the students. Ada yang dah nyanyi with the mouth that literally can swallow a hippo and still.... soft. So tenaga produksi kene banyak lagi menonton American Idol untuk mendapat ilham. Their crew actually help to control the mic systems and add other cool effects so that the contestants can give a more omph vocal performance and at the end of the day, semua happy. Another thing is the camera shots and angling. Why the hell do u always take a SUPER far view from the stage and all I can see is my fav singer of the size of semut. And Astro we don't actually wanna see audience gaduh shots alternating with the singer when the singer is performing. WTF? Big Fat Wrong move Astro. Like I say learn from American Idol, take a good look at how the camera angle is positioned to give a better viewing quality for the audience at home. For now the camera angles and shots is really below par. Stage lighting also something wrong. It's stark bright. Tak ada mood. i can see FREAKING EVERYTHING on that freaking big stage. What I am trying to say is for example cam lagu ballad Give a darker atmosphere with a spot light je just focussing on the singer instead of throwing splashes of colors yang betul betul mencolok mata and kill the mood. And yeah, tengok American Idol to better yourself. And no don't give the "They have better technology than us" excuse, come on you have 5 seasons already I am sure u can afford those "technology" too. Except for Aizat(oversize gold singlet?! halooo???), Dekna and a few more students, I must give props to the fashion department crews. You did fine. I really like the panel of jury too. Hmm, getting better on commenting huh Gee? Congrats! (err, but wassup with all the Malaysian Idol ppl migrating to AF?) I like Hattan too(though when it comes to pelajar perempuan jangan la tunjuk sangat naik miang tu Abg Hattan ahaha, jk) and OGEE! I heart you babe!
Overall, i am very sad and disappointed that this season took off like this. With all the unnecessary dramas, technical errors and controversies, hmm... getting rather lame and cliche don't you think? I hope you guys bacalah comments yang dilemparkan dan jadikan batu loncatan untuk memajukan diri.
Hmm, talking about comments, I have a comment to make. (like i have not given enough). So it's gonna be more like a bitch-let-me-tell-you-straight-in-your-face thing.

B*itch Straightening #101

Those who knows me would probably knows how annoyed i get when things are said wrongly. In other words, romours and made-up stories. Anyhow, it started on Friday when I was kinda bored. Hmm... since there's not much things to do, I've decided to google my name(who doesn't) just to see whether there is another Zeonicholas D'eric Chai in this planet. And to my horrrrrrrroooorrr... I found this.

http://onionvsginger.blogspot.com/2006/07/rumoursagain.html

Erm, lets me explain to you something Nicole Yong Wei Peng of Petaling Jaya who blog by the name "wat happens if food fights"(err you better phrase ur Q again- "wat happens if a bitch started a plain sick made-up stories") who posted "romours...again"- YOU SOOOO GOT IT WRONG.

"ey ey ey, tat new boy like u ah..!!"

I don't know where you got the stories/ ideas (and pleeeasse I dont wanna know) but let me say this straight- NOT TRUE.

2. But i dunno y n somehow, i made him cry, forgotten wat i said to him liao haha..
yup, i am cruel haha..

Erm, you NEVER made me cry. You cant remember what you said to me? Try this- Maybe you NEVER said anything. God and to be please that you are cruel? hmm... girl you so gotta get a life.

3. deric tat one erm.. his fault la actually, kept bugging me so i got damn piss off so i said sumtin.. then he kenot tahan. kei wan saw him crying after tat.. it happens probably a month b4 UPSR...haha keng anot??? haha

Bugging you? Erm? Remember I AM "the one" that is busy representing Selangor for BM competitions? So how could I have time to have "crush on/bug/like(eww)" you? Darhling hate to burst your bubble but dont cha think that there's a possibility that you might have too much of "Prasantanisme" in you. Keng anot? lol. You just made a fool of yourself. Tsk tsk tsk....

QUOTE:
"Yea..church oso got.. sigh.. nvm.. guess ppl are just jealous that i am good..or popular or..great or watever...ahahahhahah...to whom has started and helped to speard these non sense, u'r forgiven!!! haha..."

err.... *crickets*
and who in the right mind would wanna be romantically linked to Wong Shu Hwai? No offense but I'll rather stab the person who started the rumours instead of braggingly blogging about every "eww" details of my "scandalous affair" *roll eyes* with him.

So my point is Dearest Nicole- CAN'T YOU SEE? You're just making a fool of yourself. Attention seeker. And please don't come running telling me "cmon, it's just a joke" shit coz it's not. And don't apologise either because you have HURT me and I am sure the other boys too and nothing in this world you can do can change the fact. Trust me I have a Very good sense of humour but this is NOT FUNNY. Get it? Yeah... tsk you probably cry your clit heart out and bury ur brainless head into 6 feet underground. ~~Sorry~~ I do sound mean but... wat the f*uck, some b*itch need some straightening. And guys, this is just another moral story that Do Not believe everything you read on9. And to those of you who might have read her blog, i can bet with you that 3/4 of the boys in her list are just mere fantasies that she could never possibly have a chance to even cling her filthy lil fat hands onto.

Oh well. sigh...

ps- do you know why your word are in brownish shit colors?(refer above) Well every words that u wrote are, hmm... shit.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAKA!

2007-03-17T04:03:00.000+08:00

"Sugar, spice and everything nice. These were the ingredients chosen to create the perfect little girl." ~ Opening narration from THE POWERPUFF GIRLS

Dearest Laura Erika turned 2 today!
Crowned as the infamous Miss Kaki Jalan and Miss Shopping, so without her, One Utama mesti bankrupt.
She even recognizes the way to One Utama

- no joke-

Since her birthday fall on Friday, Erika, or KaKa had her grand bday party last week on Saturday. This is because most Erika kid-friends' parents had this strict rules that no party on the weekdays. Plus according to chinese belief, it is never auspicious to celebrate one's bday after the bday itself.(though it's fine to celebrate earlier)
We cant help but felt sorry for KaKa so her dad(my uncle) decided to have a small one just among family members.
We had Secret Recipe's chocolate mud cake and boy she LOVES it!!!
A picture paint a thousand words, so here's a few K's of words for you.

happy giler

clap hands......

Makan time, or....

melahap? hehehe...

aaaaa......

licin...

me: I wanna kiss.
kaka: dont want!
me: Please...
kaka: Don't want!!
me: Please please ...
kaka: Don't Want!!!!
(ger-de-bushhh!)

penulis disiku lalu pengsan...

Kaka presence since 16 of March 2005 had definitely paints colors of rainbow and beyond in our life. She made us laugh our guts out, cry(she can just come up to you and give you a tight slap without any reason), and drive us nuts at times with her constant raging tantrums and wacko attics. But without doubt dialah permata hatiku yang akan sentiasa bersinaran.
muahks!

Happy Birthday Babe! Blessed be always. ;)