It's has really been a long ride. And I am exhausted.

Another month had gone by. It's a fast lane isnt it?
It's unbelievable that 1/2 year of 2007 has almost comes to an end. Looking back, it's been a rollercoaster ride- at least for me. Many things had happened along the way, good things, bad things, but basically a whole lot of ugly( make it fugly) things. They were moments that at those ugly times that I just tell myself that life is fucking hard to live. Moments that I am sure I have quit, yet somehow I'd made it thru. Moments that I have regretted my actions. Steps I wished I have not taken. I always see myself as an artist, who never knew when to stop. Painting a good picture is when you know when to step back, look at the canvas to see the whole picture, and stop... when it's completed. Anymore strokes, and the perfect piece is ruined. Actions which I thought will help the other, only to hurt another. Confrontations that I've braved myself to face, coz I don't wanna be that same old Zeonicholas D'eric Chai who is too afraid to stand up for himself, only to lose those that only I myself know how much they really meant too me. Many said I have changed. Changed?... Yeah. I know that. I have turned myself into someone that I myself loathe. I have become obnoxious dont I? I talk too much crap, I tell jokes that soo stupidly childish and I always crack stupid lame jokes that yeah... childish. I dunno, I guess that way the world will never quite know me. One question that always come to my mind lately though. Question that I dont really wanna know the answer. Who really cares?


<... Nobody

.....not really...


THIS IS THE LAST POST FOR NOW AS MY BLOG IS GOING TO BE ON HIATUS.

How long?

Can't tell for sure.

It's high time to do some searching.

Been lost too long already...