Petals

I tried so hard not to think about it. I've tried so hard to understand. "She's my friend, she couldn't possibly do this to me!" To bring myself to come to term with it, but dahling your reasoning just doesn't make any sense. I have asked every single individual and NONE of them have the problem you are facing. So I begin to think. I mean if even at least ONE person have you problem, I could've probably accepted it, but NO ONE! FUCKING NO ONE! ARE YOU KIDDING ME? ARE YOU???

...or...

DO I ANNOYED YOU? DO I? TELL ME! Maybe I do...
Maybe you didn't wanna tell me to my face, considering how long we have been friends. So maybe by avoiding me... Sooner or later I will get this subtle hint. And if that's the case- I got it now. Maybe it's high time for us to move on. Maybe there were signs but I was just too blind to see it coming. Maybe I am no longer one of THE Hermes bags. Maybe I am already just the fungus at the corner of the Hermes bags.

Yes no doubt you have indeed helped me thru thick and thin, giving me advices, comfort me with you words of reassurance- that I am right when I AM RIGHT, and I can't possibly repay you. But that is not the thing now. The thing is that it is pretty obvious that you no longer wish to have me as a close friend, but you didn't have the f*uckin! guts to tell me in my FACE!!!

I treat you like a friend,
my best friend,
a sister. But I guess you will never know that.


"Still I wish that you and I'd
Forgive each other
'Cause I miss you, Valentine
And really loved you

I really loved you
I tried so hard
But you drove me away
To preserve my sanity
And I found the strength to break away
Fly..."