Repost:- Pain

I love you.
I myself borne witness to my love for you.
I don't care what you are wearing.

...or what you've bought me.

I just want you here.
Wanting me...

Time is running out. I won't love you unconditionally that much longer.
And soon...

I...

... won't...

... love...

... you...



... at all....




.

Please

....don't put high hopes on me.

Ambiguous Me

I am undefined.
I am like a person behind silk screen. A shield that I have created myself. I am standing not on a crossroad, but gazillion roads that I can't seem to decide which one to take.
Actually I am tired of this life. Life that is so empty... meaningless. I have many friends... People I thought I know, but when I look closely, I realized how they are completely different from me.

Or me being completely different from them.

I am forced to make choices, living lies and accepting it. I hate life. But I hate myself in general.

Still, wait for me my friend...
...Coz it's hard to be alone...

...OUTSIDE...

OUTSIDE- Mariah Carey
It's hard to explain
Inherently it's just always been strange
Neither here nor there
Always somewhat out of place everywhere
Ambiguous
Without a sense of belonging to touch
Somewhere halfway
Feeling there's no one completely the same

Chorus

Standing alone
Eager to just
Believe it's good enough to be what
You really are
But in your heart
Uncertainty forever lies
And you'll always be
Somewhere on the
Outside

Verse

Early on, you face
The realization you don't
have a space
Where you fit in
And recognize you
Were born to exist

Chorus

Standing alone
Eager to just
Believe it's good enough to be what
You really are
But in your heart
Uncertainty forever lies
And you'll always be
Somewhere on the
Outside

And it's hard
And it's hard
And it's hard

Bridge

Irreversibly
Falling in between
And it's hard
And it's hard
To be understood
As you are
As you are
Oh, and God knows
That you're standing on your own
Blind and unguided
Into a world divided
You're thrown
Where you're never quite the same
Although you try-try and try
To tell yourself
You really are
But in your heart-uncertainty forever lies
And you'll always be
Somewhere on the outside

Petals

I tried so hard not to think about it. I've tried so hard to understand. "She's my friend, she couldn't possibly do this to me!" To bring myself to come to term with it, but dahling your reasoning just doesn't make any sense. I have asked every single individual and NONE of them have the problem you are facing. So I begin to think. I mean if even at least ONE person have you problem, I could've probably accepted it, but NO ONE! FUCKING NO ONE! ARE YOU KIDDING ME? ARE YOU???

...or...

DO I ANNOYED YOU? DO I? TELL ME! Maybe I do...
Maybe you didn't wanna tell me to my face, considering how long we have been friends. So maybe by avoiding me... Sooner or later I will get this subtle hint. And if that's the case- I got it now. Maybe it's high time for us to move on. Maybe there were signs but I was just too blind to see it coming. Maybe I am no longer one of THE Hermes bags. Maybe I am already just the fungus at the corner of the Hermes bags.

Yes no doubt you have indeed helped me thru thick and thin, giving me advices, comfort me with you words of reassurance- that I am right when I AM RIGHT, and I can't possibly repay you. But that is not the thing now. The thing is that it is pretty obvious that you no longer wish to have me as a close friend, but you didn't have the f*uckin! guts to tell me in my FACE!!!

I treat you like a friend,
my best friend,
a sister. But I guess you will never know that.


"Still I wish that you and I'd
Forgive each other
'Cause I miss you, Valentine
And really loved you

I really loved you
I tried so hard
But you drove me away
To preserve my sanity
And I found the strength to break away
Fly..."

pain... chapter II

I love you.
I myself borne witness to my love for you.
I don't care what you are wearing.

...or what you've bought me.

I just want you here.
Wanting me...

Time is running out. I won't love you unconditionally that much longer.
And soon...

I...

... won't...

... love...

... you...

... at all....

Pain

"It takes your enemy and your friend, working together to hurt you to the heart;
the one to slander you and the other to get the news to you."

Mark Twain